Lost
Ever feel like you're just kinda floating.. being idle.. not doing anything.. like pressure's coming from all direction that it's finally forced you to say fuck it and not do anything? i feel like i'm having a midlife crisis at the age of 20.. well.. 21 in 2 months.. ::sigh::
I see people around me, people I went to high school with.. they're finishing up their last year at whatever university they're in.. some are already married with kids.. and look what i'm doing.. NOTHING.. I'm doing NOTHING.. it also doesn't help that my parents are so quick to point out that i'm a failure.. i think they think it helps me get motivated.. but it just hammers me down and adds on to what i'm already doing to myself..
I'm good at repressing things that upset me.. running away from the problem.. so i live my ife inside my fantasies.. trying to make believe my life is a fairy tale.. guh.. someone slap me and tell me to get it together..
I hate myself sometimes..
I see people around me, people I went to high school with.. they're finishing up their last year at whatever university they're in.. some are already married with kids.. and look what i'm doing.. NOTHING.. I'm doing NOTHING.. it also doesn't help that my parents are so quick to point out that i'm a failure.. i think they think it helps me get motivated.. but it just hammers me down and adds on to what i'm already doing to myself..
I'm good at repressing things that upset me.. running away from the problem.. so i live my ife inside my fantasies.. trying to make believe my life is a fairy tale.. guh.. someone slap me and tell me to get it together..
I hate myself sometimes..