I'm sorry
I'm Sorry I went off like that. You folks don't need to hear about my problems or deal with my hysterics. I really don't like dumping my problems on you guys as I try to be the one who listens to you and tries to help you. Most of you I'm sure will think this is over reacting to a little critisim. I'm sorry if you feel this way. For those of you who don't know I had a lousy mom who did abandon me every chance she had and ignored me for her own life. I swore I would never be like her. This is why I don't go out allot, I don't get babysitters. Cause i don't want my kids thinking my life comes before them. I want them to know they are the most important thing to me. So yes I get rather upset when someone says that I'm ignoring them or not being responsible and trying to dump them on othes. I only go to six things in a year without my kids. If jay and I are lucky we might get to go to two maybe three dates a year with out them. I don't think that's unreasonable. And of those few times most of them I ask my family to watch the kids. So yes it hurts when someone goes off about how i ALWAYS ask others to watch my kids or that i would change plans while out. Yes I was an hour late cause of traffic and the mall being so busy but Tif knew i was going to the mall after the movie. And I did try and call after the movie like I said i would but no one answered so I left a message reminding her that I was going to the mall. I also told Beck that we were going to the movies and then to the mall. (Of course I wish we hadn't gone to the movies as Hitchhiker's was SSSSOOOOOOOOO not worth paying for.) I'm sorry I was late but that doesn't mean anyone should go off like that on me. And as for asking Beck before you about a ride that was cause she had mentioned you weren't feeling well while we were talking and I wanted to know if you would be up to it before I bothered you. If you were sick I wasn't gonna ask you. And I didn't cause Beck said you hadn't been feeling well and needed sleep. Sorry I was thinking about you next time I'll just pester you whether your sick or not. Okay I'm going to go before i start going off again. Again I'm sorry for dragging you guys into this.