Well this can't be very good...
Very happy that 2004 is over and done with. Met some really cool people and had some very cool times. I'm hoping that 2005 will be better. It doesn't seem to be starting off very well though. I don't believe I will be able to go to school this semester and that will mean that I'll basically be taking a year off school. I haven't even paid off last semester, my credit card debt is horrid, I owe way too much money to my lawyer, the man and his girlfriend that I accidentally hit a few years ago have finally come out of the woodwork to squeeze money from my old insurance company, and I am currently in the process of looking for a new job. I really hope that the fact that I'm cold as hell and sniffling doesn't mean that I'm getting sick because I don't have health insurance anymore. God, the past few days have been scary in the apartment too. Two days ago me and Victor were woken up by flashing lights outside our apartment. It seems that the guys who live next door were having a party again. They were drinking and doing god knows what. Somebody must have said something fucked up because I think there was some kind of fight. The police wouldn't answer Victor when he went out into the hallway and told him to get back in the apartment. There was blood everywhere, splashed on the floor, smeared on the door frame and on the wall leading down the stairs. It was almost like someone got stabbed and tried to walk down the stairs but couldn't hold themselves up, so it smeared all on the wall. My heart was beating so fast that I had to go out to my car to get my cigarrettes to calm down. On the way back there was a cop taking pictures of the outside and hallway of the apartment. So now my apartment building is the scene of a crime. Even though the cops cleaned up the blood my hallway smells of copper. It's very weird though. Even though all this shit is happening, I think I'm taking it surprisingly well. I have friends who care about me, a boyfriend who loves me and even my family has been acting civil. I went to Ariel's bachlorette party which was bunches of fun, and I can't wait to watch her walk down the aisle. I'm so happy for her and Jasen. I just hope that we'll stay in touch after she moves away. I also called Mrs. Milton-Hall yesterday. Talked on the phone with her for a good hour. She, Chris and Jeff are great and she filled me in on some of my other friends I haven't heard from in a while. I still think about Dave all the time. I hope he's watching over me and I hope he knows that I love him and miss him.