Well, I made a decision and I'm sticking with it
I woke up yet again this morning insanely tired and extremely late for my 8:30am sculpture class. I draggd myself out of bed and instead of rushing around getting dressed I took my time and got breakfast and coffee at Food Express (local convenience store). Drove to school and parked in the red hawk deck and walked straight past the art building, Calcia Hall. Walked straight to my counselor's office. She was out teaching a class so I waited for her. She came into the office and I talked with her. I decided to take this semester off from school. Perhaps it's not the best thing to be doing, but I don't have the energy to do school and work right now, and my financial situation is so serious that I have to do something about it. That means finding a new, better paying job and working instead of going to school right now. I already feel a bit better physically. I drove home, got a chai latte and read some books I've been meaning to read. Then I took a nice long nap in my cushy bed. I feel so much more relaxed right now. I haven't quite figured out how I'm going to break the news to my parents, but they can't argue with me too much because I'm paying for my own education with loans. It sucks because yesterday marked the last day that I can get any reimbursement for withdrawing from my classes, but it needed to be done. There was no way that with as many absences and missed assignments that I had in my classes that there was any way to salvage my grades. I feel better taking the withdrawals than the inevitable F's. I still need to do a lot more healing and resting before I'm myself again though.