Seeking Beautiful
I have pushed through the past few weeks and have finally felt like I can feel God's presence again. I knew it was never away from me and I could hear Him just fine, but it was like one of those relationships where you almost just tolerate each other LoL. But no, that's not how it was. I have just been overwhelmed and my sensory systems have been fried. I feel like I am calm, peaceful, and doing the right thing. I feel motivated, hopeful, loved, and whole. It is a relief, b/c I have been having a hard time with youth things, church things, people things, and family things. But everything is just so fresh and new for me lately, jst the past couple days. I'm not sure how it happened, but it almost feels like people are praying for me.
So I was watching Joseph Prince, one of my fav pastors, and he was talking about seeking the Healer, not the healing. And I feel like that is my theme lately, "Glance at the problem, but focus on Jesus". I feel like I've had a hard time focusing, but to calmly let Jesus pick me up and spend time with him on the beach (in my mind, that is my secret place). Just listening to how much he loves me and to know that healing, awesome, resurrecting power is in my blood.... makes me confident in who I am. I spoke to the kids about HOPE on Sunday morning. One of the things I spoke that strucka chord with me is everything in life can be taken away from you. A good job, a husband, your kids...everything. You can lose it. I can lose the title 'mother' if my child dies. I can lose the title wife, if my hubs leaves. I can lose my job, I can lose my money, I can lose it all. Then what is left? Jesus. Jesus is the only safe thing we can base our identity on. And He is love, grace, peace, wisdom. If we base ourselves on those qualities, we will be whole, restored, and motivated to grow more and more. We don't get bored, stagnant, or lazy.
I really needed to hear what the Spirit was saying b/c I've thought about it all day. Just putting not only my faith and soul in Jesus, but also the belief I am part of the I AM is pretty mind blowing. I get angry, mad, and sad... but I am human and make allowance for that fact. But through Christ, I can be all things. I have read lots of Bible lately and it's been rocking my world. It's just what I needed to snap out of this haze.
So now my distractions are things I need to get done, but not my priority. Checking myself and the Jesus in me is what is keeping me laid back and has made me stop worrying. Focusing on my lover is what is keeping me straight. And I love it! It's easy! :) So I am feeling alright. On a side note, Thursday night we are doing prophetic finger painting and it's JUST what I need to focus on letting the Holy Spirit do His thing in me. It should be a fun night!
So I was watching Joseph Prince, one of my fav pastors, and he was talking about seeking the Healer, not the healing. And I feel like that is my theme lately, "Glance at the problem, but focus on Jesus". I feel like I've had a hard time focusing, but to calmly let Jesus pick me up and spend time with him on the beach (in my mind, that is my secret place). Just listening to how much he loves me and to know that healing, awesome, resurrecting power is in my blood.... makes me confident in who I am. I spoke to the kids about HOPE on Sunday morning. One of the things I spoke that strucka chord with me is everything in life can be taken away from you. A good job, a husband, your kids...everything. You can lose it. I can lose the title 'mother' if my child dies. I can lose the title wife, if my hubs leaves. I can lose my job, I can lose my money, I can lose it all. Then what is left? Jesus. Jesus is the only safe thing we can base our identity on. And He is love, grace, peace, wisdom. If we base ourselves on those qualities, we will be whole, restored, and motivated to grow more and more. We don't get bored, stagnant, or lazy.
I really needed to hear what the Spirit was saying b/c I've thought about it all day. Just putting not only my faith and soul in Jesus, but also the belief I am part of the I AM is pretty mind blowing. I get angry, mad, and sad... but I am human and make allowance for that fact. But through Christ, I can be all things. I have read lots of Bible lately and it's been rocking my world. It's just what I needed to snap out of this haze.
So now my distractions are things I need to get done, but not my priority. Checking myself and the Jesus in me is what is keeping me laid back and has made me stop worrying. Focusing on my lover is what is keeping me straight. And I love it! It's easy! :) So I am feeling alright. On a side note, Thursday night we are doing prophetic finger painting and it's JUST what I need to focus on letting the Holy Spirit do His thing in me. It should be a fun night!