omg...
kzoo left about an hour and a half ago. we had so much fun this weekend. he got here saturday about 4:30 and we chilled for a little bit then went to see the matrix reloaded. it was such a great movie. then after we went to olive garden, the food was really good. yesterday we went shopping and got new body jewelry and i called off work today so he could stay here with me longer. i <3 him so much. hes so nice to me, iv never been with anyone whos treated me better. the other day we was talking and i said someting about me being unloved and he was like "oh i dont know about that" and he kissed me. i was like "melts" it still holds true that the more i see him and talk to him the more i like him. i would say its too good to be true, but its not, hes wonderful AND hes mine and it is all true. i only hope this all works out and he does move out here in august, that would be so great. even if he doesnt move out here, as long as were still together in august that would still be good.
in the mornings when he stays here or when i stay there, he always wakes me up by kissing me or by rubbing my side or something. *sighs* hes so caring too, like when he thinks he hurt me in any way he always apologizes to me. like when i thought i "broke" him (only me and him will ever know what that means) i turned my back to him and wouldnt face him. he told me to look and him and i wouldnt, so he tried lifting my face and i pulled away. he was like "look at me, come on Jess...its ok i promise, please look at me" when he said my name i was like OMG. i dont think hes ever said my name except for a couple times over the computer. so i guess there was no apology there (except for mine) but when he says something and he thinks it upsets me he looks me right in the eyes, grabs both of my hands, and says hes sorry. he looks so sincere it just touches my heart. no one has ever in my life ever looked so sincere when they talk to me. because its not just when hes apologizing, its all the time, every time he looks in my eyes hes got that sincere look in his eyes.
i think hes like a drug to me. i need my fix once a week (preferably more) when i see him on the weekends i cant stay away from him. i know i invade his personal space, but i really dont think he minds becuase on saturday morning he only got an hour and a half of sleep then drove out here, so i told him i would sleep on the floor so he could actually get some sleep.he was like "you are not" i told him i really was and he said "well then i guess thats where im sleeping too"
hes just wonderful. with that said, im gonna end this for now and i shall post again later. much love to all.
in the mornings when he stays here or when i stay there, he always wakes me up by kissing me or by rubbing my side or something. *sighs* hes so caring too, like when he thinks he hurt me in any way he always apologizes to me. like when i thought i "broke" him (only me and him will ever know what that means) i turned my back to him and wouldnt face him. he told me to look and him and i wouldnt, so he tried lifting my face and i pulled away. he was like "look at me, come on Jess...its ok i promise, please look at me" when he said my name i was like OMG. i dont think hes ever said my name except for a couple times over the computer. so i guess there was no apology there (except for mine) but when he says something and he thinks it upsets me he looks me right in the eyes, grabs both of my hands, and says hes sorry. he looks so sincere it just touches my heart. no one has ever in my life ever looked so sincere when they talk to me. because its not just when hes apologizing, its all the time, every time he looks in my eyes hes got that sincere look in his eyes.
i think hes like a drug to me. i need my fix once a week (preferably more) when i see him on the weekends i cant stay away from him. i know i invade his personal space, but i really dont think he minds becuase on saturday morning he only got an hour and a half of sleep then drove out here, so i told him i would sleep on the floor so he could actually get some sleep.he was like "you are not" i told him i really was and he said "well then i guess thats where im sleeping too"
hes just wonderful. with that said, im gonna end this for now and i shall post again later. much love to all.