here we go again...
So the last few days have been interesting to say the least. Between shows, work, life and the like I can say eventful doesn't even cover it. Thursday night was the show @ The Venue. Now there was a night..*rolls eyes* It was awesome to see Michael who was in town for a visit. He even got up with Bombs and sang a couple songs. I of course cried when they did "Karma". Always get choked up with that one, but this time around I was crying cuz Michael was singing it (damn I miss that boy) and also cuz it severely hit home after recent events (fucking miss that boy to death). Speaking of those events; I saw him for the first time since that night and well...it was really hard. Everything was basically fine between us, but I could sense the semi-awkwardness. It's to be expected, but he's trying and frankly I'm being forced to try too. So I guess I'll deal with it the best way I know how. Ignore it. I hate that, but it's for the best...supposedly. Other than that the evening was pretty much fucked up. Bands being changed around, certain bands that will remain nameless sucking hardcore and other bands being douche bags. Then there was the general attitude of some people and others not feeling well, which I felt so bad for cuz it was their big night. Ah well, typical night with the crew I guess. Sad, but true.
Fast forward to Friday night in Austin. Kickass motherfuckin night. My boys in subNatural were great and Hipnautica freakin rocked. I was totally blown away by them. So much that I asked them to play my birthday party. They agreed and I am way excited. More on that in a minute. So the night was fun. She was actually there to support him this time. I was shocked as hell, but hey I guess it's a good thing she's coming out. Less chance for him to confuse the fuck out of me. I've more or less closed the book on that whole deal. It still hurts a little to see them together and know that I can't be with him, but I'm getting to a solid comfort zone I think. It's those damn eyes and that damn smile that gets me every single time I swear. Grr. Anyway, so Friday night fucking ruled beyond belief. I didn't even let a certain phone call get me down. Way proud of myself for that one. I so could have gone off about it, but I didn't.
So I didn't sleep like AT ALL after I got home from the show. I took a nap around 10:30am Saturday and woke up at 2pm for work. Worked 3-10:30, hauled ass home to change for the clubs, went to Sanctuary to talk to Nick about my party and see Veruca Salt!! Who btw fucking rocked dude!! Seriously awesome. When they played "Volcano Girls" I just about died. Got some cool pictures and some decent video thanks to Ducky letting me borrow his camera. Saw a couple people I hadn't seen in a long ass time so that was really cool. VS finished and I was on my way to Atomix to see the crew there. That was fun. I met some new people from the crew. They haven't been out in a while so that's why I haven't met them. Definitely cool new people. Had an awkward little connection moment with one of them after not knowingly meeting his girlfriend. Luckily he was one of those decent guys that even though there was serious sexual chemistry he let me know he was taken. I promptly told him, "Why are all the hot guys always taken?"..haha. Some friendly flirting the rest of the evening with him made it a fun night. He even danced by the wall with me..lol. That was really nice of him. The one and I had some cool moments of flirtation, but I think I've officially passed the test of just being his friend. He feels comfortable around me knowing that I'm ok with the friend thing. Damn I just might actually be getting better at this shit. Who knows. So I danced my ass off. Worked some muscles I hadn't used in a long time. I was sore before I even hit the bed.
So I crashed out fucking late again. I wanna say around 6-7am Sunday. Woke up somewhere in there to my stomach saying FUCK YOU!! Went back to sleep at some point. Luckily no work on Sunday. Show I was supposed to do that night got canceled. Sadly I was kind of happy about that. I needed the rest. So I slept a good portion of the day. Spent the rest of the day/evening editing stuff and getting party details squared away. Stayed up mega late again. Not really doing much of anything worth doing. More or less just being blah. Missing California boy who'd been gone on many photo gigs this weekend. Traveling all over the place. Monday came and I had taken yet another nap before work. Woke up late for work cuz I'm a dumbass basically. Got there late, felt like shit, went home early. Bad day all around. Only good part was I officially got my bands booked for the party. Good stuff!
The party planning is totally underway now. I've got Chant, subNatural and Hipnautica with Ducky DJing. Too excited for words let me tell you!! Seriously fucking excited. Promotions out the ass for this for sure. I've gotta wait until next week to get flyers printed because I have NO money until then. This should be fun. Of course the lack of funds means lack of food which means mega progress on the diet plans..lol. Anywho, online promotions started yesterday with the "Details coming soon!" ad making it all mysterious and crap. And the crew at the Redrum show last night was telling everyone about it already. So that freakin ruled. I'm gonna end up having more Austin people there than San Antonio people...lol.
I think I might even have a special guest from California there. *huge grin* I finally got to talk to him Monday after basically four days without. Was so good to hear from him. He shared some of the pictures he had done, which was really cool. He always makes me blush so many shades of red though cuz he's so concerned about what I think of his work. It's cute really and quite flattering to say the least. So then yesterday I got online to check stuff and guess what I found? One of the pictures I did for him and put up on my page..he put it on his profile as his main picture with the same caption as mine. My jaw literally dropped and I got all warm and fuzzy..lol. You know I will seriously die if he shows up for my party. Seriously. *sigh*
Hipnautica played last night. I got the night off from work to go see it. Seriously glad I did. They blew me away the first time, but damn I'm even happier after last night that I asked them to play my party. Not to mention the fact that every single one of the bands is mega excited about the show. That makes it even more special. I can't wait! Steve actually showed up to this one. Was definitely surprised to see him. He gave me the biggest hug. It was cool. We chatted for a bit. Then longer outside on the patio. He was well on his way to majorly wasted around 11:30. That was funny. Especially cuz he tends to get really lovey dovey. I was like dammit why you gotta do this shit? But he was at that point where he remembers what he felt for me and then gets all huggy and tries to make up for things. *rolls eyes* It was interesting. Definitely one of those moments where I felt how much I miss being in his arms. Grrness. Stupid boys.
Anyway.
After the show a few of us went to Magnolia's to get some food. I kept thinking I'd been to that place and it dawned on me when we sat down. That's where EGM and crew went after the Austin MSI gig. Now that brought back some major memories. That was the night that Jenn and I were dubbed Wheels and Wobbles. It was also the night Boodie dropped me..lol. Oh what memories. So yeah, back to the present. It was cool. Chris C. met us there and that was really cool. I hadn't seen him in so long that we couldn't remember when we had last seen each other. Clearly WAY too long in both our opinions. So I told him about my party and told him I would kick his ass if he didn't show. He said he'd be there. :-)
Wow I've covered a lot and yet there's so much more of course. But for now I must edit and get to the post office with California boy's pictures and shirts I got him. He was so cute when I told him I had a surprise for him. He finally conned me into telling him what it was. Of course I didn't tell him outright. That's where the pictures came into play. It was an Avery inspired shoot. :-) But alas I must edit and edit and edit. Not just the pictures for him, but a shit load of other stuff. I've run out of legit excuses for those that don't know/understand what's been going on with me lately. So I've got to buckle down and get it all done.
Other things on the agenda today...cleaning, laundry and organizing. 1. I've got to do it anyway. 2. If certain people who promised they will visit are going to visit I need to get this place in order. 3. If California boy is coming for my birthday I want this place in tip top shape.
So I'm off for now. This was a long ass entry. I'll try to update more, but damn when all that shit happens in like four days it's kind of hard to update every single day. Anywho, I'm off.
Laters.
Pictures!!!
Veruca Salt baby!
Hipnautica
subNatural
Ode to Avery
Party!!
Fast forward to Friday night in Austin. Kickass motherfuckin night. My boys in subNatural were great and Hipnautica freakin rocked. I was totally blown away by them. So much that I asked them to play my birthday party. They agreed and I am way excited. More on that in a minute. So the night was fun. She was actually there to support him this time. I was shocked as hell, but hey I guess it's a good thing she's coming out. Less chance for him to confuse the fuck out of me. I've more or less closed the book on that whole deal. It still hurts a little to see them together and know that I can't be with him, but I'm getting to a solid comfort zone I think. It's those damn eyes and that damn smile that gets me every single time I swear. Grr. Anyway, so Friday night fucking ruled beyond belief. I didn't even let a certain phone call get me down. Way proud of myself for that one. I so could have gone off about it, but I didn't.
So I didn't sleep like AT ALL after I got home from the show. I took a nap around 10:30am Saturday and woke up at 2pm for work. Worked 3-10:30, hauled ass home to change for the clubs, went to Sanctuary to talk to Nick about my party and see Veruca Salt!! Who btw fucking rocked dude!! Seriously awesome. When they played "Volcano Girls" I just about died. Got some cool pictures and some decent video thanks to Ducky letting me borrow his camera. Saw a couple people I hadn't seen in a long ass time so that was really cool. VS finished and I was on my way to Atomix to see the crew there. That was fun. I met some new people from the crew. They haven't been out in a while so that's why I haven't met them. Definitely cool new people. Had an awkward little connection moment with one of them after not knowingly meeting his girlfriend. Luckily he was one of those decent guys that even though there was serious sexual chemistry he let me know he was taken. I promptly told him, "Why are all the hot guys always taken?"..haha. Some friendly flirting the rest of the evening with him made it a fun night. He even danced by the wall with me..lol. That was really nice of him. The one and I had some cool moments of flirtation, but I think I've officially passed the test of just being his friend. He feels comfortable around me knowing that I'm ok with the friend thing. Damn I just might actually be getting better at this shit. Who knows. So I danced my ass off. Worked some muscles I hadn't used in a long time. I was sore before I even hit the bed.
So I crashed out fucking late again. I wanna say around 6-7am Sunday. Woke up somewhere in there to my stomach saying FUCK YOU!! Went back to sleep at some point. Luckily no work on Sunday. Show I was supposed to do that night got canceled. Sadly I was kind of happy about that. I needed the rest. So I slept a good portion of the day. Spent the rest of the day/evening editing stuff and getting party details squared away. Stayed up mega late again. Not really doing much of anything worth doing. More or less just being blah. Missing California boy who'd been gone on many photo gigs this weekend. Traveling all over the place. Monday came and I had taken yet another nap before work. Woke up late for work cuz I'm a dumbass basically. Got there late, felt like shit, went home early. Bad day all around. Only good part was I officially got my bands booked for the party. Good stuff!
The party planning is totally underway now. I've got Chant, subNatural and Hipnautica with Ducky DJing. Too excited for words let me tell you!! Seriously fucking excited. Promotions out the ass for this for sure. I've gotta wait until next week to get flyers printed because I have NO money until then. This should be fun. Of course the lack of funds means lack of food which means mega progress on the diet plans..lol. Anywho, online promotions started yesterday with the "Details coming soon!" ad making it all mysterious and crap. And the crew at the Redrum show last night was telling everyone about it already. So that freakin ruled. I'm gonna end up having more Austin people there than San Antonio people...lol.
I think I might even have a special guest from California there. *huge grin* I finally got to talk to him Monday after basically four days without. Was so good to hear from him. He shared some of the pictures he had done, which was really cool. He always makes me blush so many shades of red though cuz he's so concerned about what I think of his work. It's cute really and quite flattering to say the least. So then yesterday I got online to check stuff and guess what I found? One of the pictures I did for him and put up on my page..he put it on his profile as his main picture with the same caption as mine. My jaw literally dropped and I got all warm and fuzzy..lol. You know I will seriously die if he shows up for my party. Seriously. *sigh*
Hipnautica played last night. I got the night off from work to go see it. Seriously glad I did. They blew me away the first time, but damn I'm even happier after last night that I asked them to play my party. Not to mention the fact that every single one of the bands is mega excited about the show. That makes it even more special. I can't wait! Steve actually showed up to this one. Was definitely surprised to see him. He gave me the biggest hug. It was cool. We chatted for a bit. Then longer outside on the patio. He was well on his way to majorly wasted around 11:30. That was funny. Especially cuz he tends to get really lovey dovey. I was like dammit why you gotta do this shit? But he was at that point where he remembers what he felt for me and then gets all huggy and tries to make up for things. *rolls eyes* It was interesting. Definitely one of those moments where I felt how much I miss being in his arms. Grrness. Stupid boys.
Anyway.
After the show a few of us went to Magnolia's to get some food. I kept thinking I'd been to that place and it dawned on me when we sat down. That's where EGM and crew went after the Austin MSI gig. Now that brought back some major memories. That was the night that Jenn and I were dubbed Wheels and Wobbles. It was also the night Boodie dropped me..lol. Oh what memories. So yeah, back to the present. It was cool. Chris C. met us there and that was really cool. I hadn't seen him in so long that we couldn't remember when we had last seen each other. Clearly WAY too long in both our opinions. So I told him about my party and told him I would kick his ass if he didn't show. He said he'd be there. :-)
Wow I've covered a lot and yet there's so much more of course. But for now I must edit and get to the post office with California boy's pictures and shirts I got him. He was so cute when I told him I had a surprise for him. He finally conned me into telling him what it was. Of course I didn't tell him outright. That's where the pictures came into play. It was an Avery inspired shoot. :-) But alas I must edit and edit and edit. Not just the pictures for him, but a shit load of other stuff. I've run out of legit excuses for those that don't know/understand what's been going on with me lately. So I've got to buckle down and get it all done.
Other things on the agenda today...cleaning, laundry and organizing. 1. I've got to do it anyway. 2. If certain people who promised they will visit are going to visit I need to get this place in order. 3. If California boy is coming for my birthday I want this place in tip top shape.
So I'm off for now. This was a long ass entry. I'll try to update more, but damn when all that shit happens in like four days it's kind of hard to update every single day. Anywho, I'm off.
Laters.
Pictures!!!
Veruca Salt baby!
Hipnautica
subNatural
Ode to Avery
Party!!