Therapy Journal: entry two - Girl hates everything
Every so often, I have a memory flash into my head. It's usually something I deem embarrassing or unpleasant. I shake the aforementioned head and mutter 'I hate everything' over and over again until it goes away. It can be something from high school, junior high...some random encounter with an extended family member. I don't want to remember what I consider the awful things I either said or did. I don't want to remember the awful things that happened. I have flashes of the beatings I took, or the boys I fooled around with, or any number of other events.
It starts with the memory in questions popping into my head. The second I start to feel uncomfortable, I start trying to banish it out of my head by shaking it and saying 'No no no' or 'I hate everything, I hate life, I hate everything'. It's odd. I don't like it.
It starts with the memory in questions popping into my head. The second I start to feel uncomfortable, I start trying to banish it out of my head by shaking it and saying 'No no no' or 'I hate everything, I hate life, I hate everything'. It's odd. I don't like it.