Hi Friends
I haven't posted here in a long while, huh?
Some of you have wandered over from my ONTD series "Great Scandals in the Evangelical Church". WELCOME. I'm quite boring, so forgive me now.
But writing that series has really started helping me come to terms with the severity of my abuse at the hands of my mother. The physical abuse ended when I was about 17 and I was actually bigger than her finally. My mother is an authoritarian parent: things are done because she is the mother and I am the child. I am now a 53 year old grown ass woman, and she still holds things against me that I did as a 4 year old toddler.
YES.
I tend to post a little in r/raisedbynarcissists, but I've been more than a bit afraid of going to a therapist to wade through not only the trauma, but the potential conditions I might have that were fully ignored for the better part of four decades. I've been told by numerous others that I exhibit behaviors associated with: ADHD, PTSD, Autism, anxiety disorder and never mind my learning diverergencies. I've also been accused of having DID, but the person who did that is an unreliable narrator and I don't have contact with that person anymore.
In short, because of the writing I'm doing about some of the terrible things I was exposed to as a child, I'm beginning to see therapy as something that might be viable. So thanks for helping me go through this phase.
Some of you have wandered over from my ONTD series "Great Scandals in the Evangelical Church". WELCOME. I'm quite boring, so forgive me now.
But writing that series has really started helping me come to terms with the severity of my abuse at the hands of my mother. The physical abuse ended when I was about 17 and I was actually bigger than her finally. My mother is an authoritarian parent: things are done because she is the mother and I am the child. I am now a 53 year old grown ass woman, and she still holds things against me that I did as a 4 year old toddler.
YES.
I tend to post a little in r/raisedbynarcissists, but I've been more than a bit afraid of going to a therapist to wade through not only the trauma, but the potential conditions I might have that were fully ignored for the better part of four decades. I've been told by numerous others that I exhibit behaviors associated with: ADHD, PTSD, Autism, anxiety disorder and never mind my learning diverergencies. I've also been accused of having DID, but the person who did that is an unreliable narrator and I don't have contact with that person anymore.
In short, because of the writing I'm doing about some of the terrible things I was exposed to as a child, I'm beginning to see therapy as something that might be viable. So thanks for helping me go through this phase.