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so, this is one of those hilarious things, my room here, is darker (less light from outside) than the one in Norwich... no curtains, just... WOW! I'm in complete disbelief that I'm living in a city... *laughs* oh, so, I was getting into a elevator today, my cell phone rang, and as the doors shut, it completely died... heh. luckily it was just: elevators + cell phones = no reception...
[later]
oh so tired now. woke up around 8 (after going to bed at 2)... Dad came and we hung out for a while... went to the national zoo (my favorite place in DC!!!!) it was so lovely there... lots of little children running around, and animals... we went into the ape house... and suddenly I remembered how much I once wanted to save animals from humans... and the question arose for me, do I want to help the world's children? or do I want to try to protect animals? god. I'm starting to remember why I took AP ES again... 'cause, I'm not as hard core as some (My entire class!!!) but, in a sense, I do care... more about animals... but that is just me. general trend? protecting/helping those who can't fight for themselves... maybe by helping one, I can improve the likely hood of the other... it is so easy to want to give up on both... I just tend to get overwhelmed, and begin feeling helpless... and yet, I care so deeply that sometimes it simply hurts...
so, met Natsuko today (along with her mother and sister) they were here when Dad and I got back... she seems really nice, and a kind of quiet way... I guess I'll see more of her later! *laughs*
[later]
just came back from, getting my au ID. heh. that was kind of funny. Linda and Brandon had just gotten theirs, so I went to to Anderson to get it... wow. so many people over there... made me appreciate living on this side of campus. mmmmmmmmm orange juice is my friend (I was getting a little tired of drinking so much water...) What a lovely day! there are so many flowers (and especially ROSES!!!) around campus!!! makes a girl happy! on my way back to my dorm Jeff called. Curled up in the shade and talked for a while... I feel bad, because I'm talking about all these exciting things that are happening here; and in a sense, even my wanting to share them all with him must be, strange, 'cause he has no real idea... just me being excited! when I got back to the dorm, more people moving in... at the front desk, some guy was delivering flowers, this huge bouquet of roses... I came up as he said, "these are for Asha Moffatt" and I was, "yeah, that's me..." it was funny. as I was getting into the elevator, this girl was like, "damn, I want flowers this soon too!" *smiles* THANK YOU JIMMY!!! they look lovely on my desk! when I was coming back Linda and Brandon were in Linda's room watching comedy... so I joined them. *grins* lots of fun!
mmmm....... still really tired. thinking of trying to read...
[later]
suddenly I realize, I feel... so out of place. I just woke up after napping for about an hour... I'm not lonely, just feel useless at the moment. this waiting for 'morrow to happen so that I can starting doing something is a little hard... maybe I'll go get some food, and then read some... god. I'm tired. and everything gets fuzzy, and out of focus when I'm sleepy... like a child, I want someone to come up to me and TELL me what I'm supposed to be doing... don't they have listst for us first years? *laughs* mmmm have a sense of humor about the entire thing. otherwise I'll end up drowning myself in self-pity. *laughs* and I'm way too good at that!
right now the sun is shining in through the window. everything is a little golden, and warm, although I'm cold at the moment. I can hear the sound of people playing on the basketball court, the thump every time the ball hits the ground hard, and the loud grunts of them trying to communicate something to each other... they've been playing for over two hours, and I wonder, don't they ever get tired? or is this a new set of players tossing the ball around...? the roar of airplanes seems to be a soft constant here, only occasionally does it seem too loud. more like a soft mosquito, or the sound of distant thunder... the occasional beep of construction on the new arts center. it's hard to remember that I am in the middle of the heart of the United States of America. Everything seems so quiet here, far quieter, in fact, from Norwich, where the two highways are a constant disturbance, and the rowers in the early morning are a wake up call from late April to early November... The flowers on my desk are a reminder that, although I'm far from "home" I'm still loved... even the pictures I've chosen to put in the frames, sunsets on BI, make me remember little things... like standing on the South Point of BI this year in a storm. or being with Emma while it was windy for a full week. A picture of my grandmother and I while on a boat, or the glass paper weight my god mother gave me when she came to visit... I'm surrounded by things given in love, and it makes it a little more peaceful.
thump, thump, thump, whoa the game must be going well. I can't see it from here, only hear it... which is so different... close my eyes, and everything comes alive for me outside of my room... the slam of a door lets me know someone it leaving their room, while the soft chirping of birds tells me that they are flying by... I like this quiet. *smiles*
[later]
heh, tried to explain why Jimmy would get me flowers... they were like, so, wait, your ex-boyfriend got you flowers? and doesn't want to get back together... and I just started laughing (sorry Jimmy)
[later]
finished putting together the TV, and stereo. Natsuko went out for dinner with her parents... watched some Alias on my computer... *grins* oh so yummy! not too much else it going on... more people arriving... sitting in the hallway talking. nice, but I'm just a little too shy to join them for long periods of time. I enjoy Marie though, she seems really nice - aka, I like talking to her.
[later]
*smiles* wow, I had fun tonight! hehe, lets see, left my room 'cause I was just like... yay, I'm bored! joined peoples in Marie and Linda's room... we ended up walking around campus, Brendon and I talked a bunch, he's kind of obsessed with certain things... it's easy to just listen, smile, nod and agree, and completely space out. I know. that's mean... we started talking about movies... and books. it was fun. Then joined everyone in the lounge so that the floor could meet... it was fun. *smiles* talked to Christie a bunch 'bout everything... hehe... not sure how to describe how I feel at the moment... comfortable in my skin I guess... I was terrified that I'd just be too shy and insecure (and i"m sure it will be like that at moments...) but for right now, it's ok being me, and I can have fun with other (new) people, without feeling overly self-conscious... *smiles*
getting kind of tired, and feeling just a little like, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so much input!!! so, maybe I'll channel surf for a little while, and then attack this bed. *smiles*
[later]
oh so tired now. woke up around 8 (after going to bed at 2)... Dad came and we hung out for a while... went to the national zoo (my favorite place in DC!!!!) it was so lovely there... lots of little children running around, and animals... we went into the ape house... and suddenly I remembered how much I once wanted to save animals from humans... and the question arose for me, do I want to help the world's children? or do I want to try to protect animals? god. I'm starting to remember why I took AP ES again... 'cause, I'm not as hard core as some (My entire class!!!) but, in a sense, I do care... more about animals... but that is just me. general trend? protecting/helping those who can't fight for themselves... maybe by helping one, I can improve the likely hood of the other... it is so easy to want to give up on both... I just tend to get overwhelmed, and begin feeling helpless... and yet, I care so deeply that sometimes it simply hurts...
so, met Natsuko today (along with her mother and sister) they were here when Dad and I got back... she seems really nice, and a kind of quiet way... I guess I'll see more of her later! *laughs*
[later]
just came back from, getting my au ID. heh. that was kind of funny. Linda and Brandon had just gotten theirs, so I went to to Anderson to get it... wow. so many people over there... made me appreciate living on this side of campus. mmmmmmmmm orange juice is my friend (I was getting a little tired of drinking so much water...) What a lovely day! there are so many flowers (and especially ROSES!!!) around campus!!! makes a girl happy! on my way back to my dorm Jeff called. Curled up in the shade and talked for a while... I feel bad, because I'm talking about all these exciting things that are happening here; and in a sense, even my wanting to share them all with him must be, strange, 'cause he has no real idea... just me being excited! when I got back to the dorm, more people moving in... at the front desk, some guy was delivering flowers, this huge bouquet of roses... I came up as he said, "these are for Asha Moffatt" and I was, "yeah, that's me..." it was funny. as I was getting into the elevator, this girl was like, "damn, I want flowers this soon too!" *smiles* THANK YOU JIMMY!!! they look lovely on my desk! when I was coming back Linda and Brandon were in Linda's room watching comedy... so I joined them. *grins* lots of fun!
mmmm....... still really tired. thinking of trying to read...
[later]
suddenly I realize, I feel... so out of place. I just woke up after napping for about an hour... I'm not lonely, just feel useless at the moment. this waiting for 'morrow to happen so that I can starting doing something is a little hard... maybe I'll go get some food, and then read some... god. I'm tired. and everything gets fuzzy, and out of focus when I'm sleepy... like a child, I want someone to come up to me and TELL me what I'm supposed to be doing... don't they have listst for us first years? *laughs* mmmm have a sense of humor about the entire thing. otherwise I'll end up drowning myself in self-pity. *laughs* and I'm way too good at that!
right now the sun is shining in through the window. everything is a little golden, and warm, although I'm cold at the moment. I can hear the sound of people playing on the basketball court, the thump every time the ball hits the ground hard, and the loud grunts of them trying to communicate something to each other... they've been playing for over two hours, and I wonder, don't they ever get tired? or is this a new set of players tossing the ball around...? the roar of airplanes seems to be a soft constant here, only occasionally does it seem too loud. more like a soft mosquito, or the sound of distant thunder... the occasional beep of construction on the new arts center. it's hard to remember that I am in the middle of the heart of the United States of America. Everything seems so quiet here, far quieter, in fact, from Norwich, where the two highways are a constant disturbance, and the rowers in the early morning are a wake up call from late April to early November... The flowers on my desk are a reminder that, although I'm far from "home" I'm still loved... even the pictures I've chosen to put in the frames, sunsets on BI, make me remember little things... like standing on the South Point of BI this year in a storm. or being with Emma while it was windy for a full week. A picture of my grandmother and I while on a boat, or the glass paper weight my god mother gave me when she came to visit... I'm surrounded by things given in love, and it makes it a little more peaceful.
thump, thump, thump, whoa the game must be going well. I can't see it from here, only hear it... which is so different... close my eyes, and everything comes alive for me outside of my room... the slam of a door lets me know someone it leaving their room, while the soft chirping of birds tells me that they are flying by... I like this quiet. *smiles*
[later]
heh, tried to explain why Jimmy would get me flowers... they were like, so, wait, your ex-boyfriend got you flowers? and doesn't want to get back together... and I just started laughing (sorry Jimmy)
[later]
finished putting together the TV, and stereo. Natsuko went out for dinner with her parents... watched some Alias on my computer... *grins* oh so yummy! not too much else it going on... more people arriving... sitting in the hallway talking. nice, but I'm just a little too shy to join them for long periods of time. I enjoy Marie though, she seems really nice - aka, I like talking to her.
[later]
*smiles* wow, I had fun tonight! hehe, lets see, left my room 'cause I was just like... yay, I'm bored! joined peoples in Marie and Linda's room... we ended up walking around campus, Brendon and I talked a bunch, he's kind of obsessed with certain things... it's easy to just listen, smile, nod and agree, and completely space out. I know. that's mean... we started talking about movies... and books. it was fun. Then joined everyone in the lounge so that the floor could meet... it was fun. *smiles* talked to Christie a bunch 'bout everything... hehe... not sure how to describe how I feel at the moment... comfortable in my skin I guess... I was terrified that I'd just be too shy and insecure (and i"m sure it will be like that at moments...) but for right now, it's ok being me, and I can have fun with other (new) people, without feeling overly self-conscious... *smiles*
getting kind of tired, and feeling just a little like, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so much input!!! so, maybe I'll channel surf for a little while, and then attack this bed. *smiles*