i'm sorry, can i say this?
this is shit.
i can't even be around you. my heart forgets so quickly and i just feel so safe and then my head swiftly kicks my heart in the ass.
you're not mine. i don't want to let myself pretend that you are.
i don't know what to do. i hate this limbo we're in.
you say it's temporary. it's a break. but nothing will change if i'm still around. you'll never get what you need if i just trail you like the lovesick puppy i am.
you walked. i have to accept it.
when i'm busy, i tell myself that i can do this. i tell myself im strong enough this time. all i have to do is keep moving, keep breathing and not stop til i know i'll immediately fall asleep.
i don't want to sit around and think anymore. my heart still wants this but i can't give in to something i'm MAKING UP.
being with you now is a cushion. it's hot dogs and happy meals and things that make me feel good at the time and only leave me feeling empty and guilty later.
I am no longer in a relationship. I am alone. I am...single.
i can't even be around you. my heart forgets so quickly and i just feel so safe and then my head swiftly kicks my heart in the ass.
you're not mine. i don't want to let myself pretend that you are.
i don't know what to do. i hate this limbo we're in.
you say it's temporary. it's a break. but nothing will change if i'm still around. you'll never get what you need if i just trail you like the lovesick puppy i am.
you walked. i have to accept it.
when i'm busy, i tell myself that i can do this. i tell myself im strong enough this time. all i have to do is keep moving, keep breathing and not stop til i know i'll immediately fall asleep.
i don't want to sit around and think anymore. my heart still wants this but i can't give in to something i'm MAKING UP.
being with you now is a cushion. it's hot dogs and happy meals and things that make me feel good at the time and only leave me feeling empty and guilty later.
I am no longer in a relationship. I am alone. I am...single.