I miss
my headphones. My roommate is studying and I would like to be listening to music now. HOWEVER that cannot be.
Or can it?
I just turned it on. verryyyy quietly. win win.
Yesterday consisted of just... talking. Which I was in love with. I don't know. I don't understand how some people can just not talk to the people they live with. I understand that we all have busy lives and places to be and things to do... but sometimes we need to just relax, sit down... and talk. That is one of my favorite things to do. To just figure out people's thoughts and feelings. And you can bet that if you and I can have a long, genuine and honest talk, that i will love you forever.
My mom and I talked a little over break about that-which-shall-not-be-named. I love her so much. I want desperately to do right by her... but at the same time, I know in my heart that it is hers that needs to open. To accept it... to accept me. I am following my heart and the path the He has laid for me, and there is nothing sinful about it. I want her to take a deep breath and realize that I am begging for her support and acceptance. Something which has never been an issue ever before in our relationship because I AM an obedient daughter and because they are loving, accepting parents. We haven't had differing opinions about what I SHOULD or SHOULD NOT be doing... and if we ever did, I would trust in their judgement, in their wisdom.
But you know what? I tried that. I tried ignoring my heart, my soul, my mind... I tried all that for them. And you know what it did? It gave me two years of miscommunication, fear and turbulence. I won't do that any more. I have found PEACE. I trust in him and in his path for me. I am meant to change minds, I want to follow Jesus. I must spread Christ's unconditional, unwavering love and acceptance. We all must! What else can I do?
I can pray for the strength to KEEP talking about it.
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can && the wisdom to know the difference.
Hm. I had other things to say... but this is rather lengthy as it stands now. So perhaps I shall go to the gym! New year, New you!
Peace, Love && post secrets
Or can it?
I just turned it on. verryyyy quietly. win win.
Yesterday consisted of just... talking. Which I was in love with. I don't know. I don't understand how some people can just not talk to the people they live with. I understand that we all have busy lives and places to be and things to do... but sometimes we need to just relax, sit down... and talk. That is one of my favorite things to do. To just figure out people's thoughts and feelings. And you can bet that if you and I can have a long, genuine and honest talk, that i will love you forever.
My mom and I talked a little over break about that-which-shall-not-be-named. I love her so much. I want desperately to do right by her... but at the same time, I know in my heart that it is hers that needs to open. To accept it... to accept me. I am following my heart and the path the He has laid for me, and there is nothing sinful about it. I want her to take a deep breath and realize that I am begging for her support and acceptance. Something which has never been an issue ever before in our relationship because I AM an obedient daughter and because they are loving, accepting parents. We haven't had differing opinions about what I SHOULD or SHOULD NOT be doing... and if we ever did, I would trust in their judgement, in their wisdom.
But you know what? I tried that. I tried ignoring my heart, my soul, my mind... I tried all that for them. And you know what it did? It gave me two years of miscommunication, fear and turbulence. I won't do that any more. I have found PEACE. I trust in him and in his path for me. I am meant to change minds, I want to follow Jesus. I must spread Christ's unconditional, unwavering love and acceptance. We all must! What else can I do?
I can pray for the strength to KEEP talking about it.
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can && the wisdom to know the difference.
Hm. I had other things to say... but this is rather lengthy as it stands now. So perhaps I shall go to the gym! New year, New you!
Peace, Love && post secrets