Lock Down
Clearing my thoughts before I return to the house...
Just got denied from the loan I need to continue going to school. Hopefully I can fix that. This stuff gives me such a headache.. I don't want to learn about APRs and all that funky shit. I'm tired of all that bullshit, when are you going to play some of that good shit?
My classes are alright, I just spent over $200 on books though. I hate when people complain about money, but its kind of a pressing issue. I feel so poor. I'd rather just let the good times roll but there are times when you really do need to stop and think, "do I really need that 75 cent doughnut?" or "Maybe I should eat some of that old dry pasta instead of buying that slice of village market pizza..." Hmmm...
I think I'm going to stop smoking cigarettes? I haven't had one all day, yet I really want one right now. I feel really stressed and I would love to inhale some invigorating toxins right about now. I think I'm going to put everything into school though. It'll be a good way to focus my thoughts and not think about other stuff. I think I'm the lonliest I've ever been. Even when I'm not alone I feel it but its worse at night. In the morning I feel refreshed but I go to bed with that same empty feeling. I try to go to bed only when I know I will fall asleep right away so I don't have to think. But I need to return now because my keys are among the missing and I don't want to get locked out.
Just got denied from the loan I need to continue going to school. Hopefully I can fix that. This stuff gives me such a headache.. I don't want to learn about APRs and all that funky shit. I'm tired of all that bullshit, when are you going to play some of that good shit?
My classes are alright, I just spent over $200 on books though. I hate when people complain about money, but its kind of a pressing issue. I feel so poor. I'd rather just let the good times roll but there are times when you really do need to stop and think, "do I really need that 75 cent doughnut?" or "Maybe I should eat some of that old dry pasta instead of buying that slice of village market pizza..." Hmmm...
I think I'm going to stop smoking cigarettes? I haven't had one all day, yet I really want one right now. I feel really stressed and I would love to inhale some invigorating toxins right about now. I think I'm going to put everything into school though. It'll be a good way to focus my thoughts and not think about other stuff. I think I'm the lonliest I've ever been. Even when I'm not alone I feel it but its worse at night. In the morning I feel refreshed but I go to bed with that same empty feeling. I try to go to bed only when I know I will fall asleep right away so I don't have to think. But I need to return now because my keys are among the missing and I don't want to get locked out.