Measuring a summer's day, I only finds it slips away to grey
The hours, they bring me pain.
Tangerine, Tangerine, Living reflection from a dream;
I was her love, she was my queen, And now a thousand years between.
Thinking how it used to be, Does she still remember times like these?
To think of us again? And I do.
Today I went to Downtown crossing with Adri, and I had a good time. We split food at the local Wendy's and went shopping. I bought this cd for $1 and thought it was really going to suck, but it wasn't too bad. I mainly bought it as a joke, because some of it is in French and one of the songs is called "Tina Gasolina". We went to H&M and she bought me earrings.
***long conversation with Kitty***
Yeah, so Kitty called me from New York, and we talked for a while.
I've been trying to keep busy, but if things turn out the way I think they will, it's going to be a difficult summer. So far its been nothing like I've imagined. Well some of it was, and it hasn't been that bad. But it doesn't feel like summer, it feels like an extended spring vacation. I was hoping to work a lot this summer because I really need to save money. I wanted to look at colleges and stuff too.
I really don't even want to think about next year at school. I wish I could skip it. I feel like dropping out and going to Europe right now. I don't feel like I have a whole lot holding me back here in Malden, and it'd be great to get out. But whatever, I'm just typing as I'm thinking. And I don't feel so great right now.
Walking home from the station this afternoon I felt a surge of "power" or whatever you want to call it. And a couple hours later that feeling crashed and I felt remorse again. And anger and confusion. I feel used. And I feel an emo song coming on.
I went for a walk tonight. The air was cool and I thought it would help me think. I ended up calling half the people in my phone "just to say hi", and I ended up talking to one person.
Yeah, I don't know what else to say.
Tangerine, Tangerine, Living reflection from a dream;
I was her love, she was my queen, And now a thousand years between.
Thinking how it used to be, Does she still remember times like these?
To think of us again? And I do.
Today I went to Downtown crossing with Adri, and I had a good time. We split food at the local Wendy's and went shopping. I bought this cd for $1 and thought it was really going to suck, but it wasn't too bad. I mainly bought it as a joke, because some of it is in French and one of the songs is called "Tina Gasolina". We went to H&M and she bought me earrings.
***long conversation with Kitty***
Yeah, so Kitty called me from New York, and we talked for a while.
I've been trying to keep busy, but if things turn out the way I think they will, it's going to be a difficult summer. So far its been nothing like I've imagined. Well some of it was, and it hasn't been that bad. But it doesn't feel like summer, it feels like an extended spring vacation. I was hoping to work a lot this summer because I really need to save money. I wanted to look at colleges and stuff too.
I really don't even want to think about next year at school. I wish I could skip it. I feel like dropping out and going to Europe right now. I don't feel like I have a whole lot holding me back here in Malden, and it'd be great to get out. But whatever, I'm just typing as I'm thinking. And I don't feel so great right now.
Walking home from the station this afternoon I felt a surge of "power" or whatever you want to call it. And a couple hours later that feeling crashed and I felt remorse again. And anger and confusion. I feel used. And I feel an emo song coming on.
I went for a walk tonight. The air was cool and I thought it would help me think. I ended up calling half the people in my phone "just to say hi", and I ended up talking to one person.
Yeah, I don't know what else to say.