dear
i don't know if you still read this. i'm not going to send it to you directy. if you are reading it, you will know it is you.
i give up.
this is the most maturely that i have ever handled something i feel this strongly about. as much as you want to be the glue that fixes everything, everything can't miraculously become okay again. though, excuse my bitterness on this, you were persuasive as hell today. despite however much i need to get over it, it is extremely painful for me to see you with her. as an in-everyone's-best interest, i don't want to be around you together. i don't understand why you couldn't invite anyone else in the world. i think that was very inconsiderate of you.
so i've told you how i feel. i've been completely honest, even with the things i want to lie to you about.
if you know me at all, i am one of the most in-touch-with-their-feelings girls you have ever met. still, as i've lived with myself over the years i have become able to differentiate what i know rationally and when my emotions are playing on conjecture. i can't force you to take what i say seriously.
i'm not writing you anymore. i'm not calling you anymore. i'm not talking to you anymore. it is your turn.
i am here if you want to talk.
i give up.
this is the most maturely that i have ever handled something i feel this strongly about. as much as you want to be the glue that fixes everything, everything can't miraculously become okay again. though, excuse my bitterness on this, you were persuasive as hell today. despite however much i need to get over it, it is extremely painful for me to see you with her. as an in-everyone's-best interest, i don't want to be around you together. i don't understand why you couldn't invite anyone else in the world. i think that was very inconsiderate of you.
so i've told you how i feel. i've been completely honest, even with the things i want to lie to you about.
if you know me at all, i am one of the most in-touch-with-their-feelings girls you have ever met. still, as i've lived with myself over the years i have become able to differentiate what i know rationally and when my emotions are playing on conjecture. i can't force you to take what i say seriously.
i'm not writing you anymore. i'm not calling you anymore. i'm not talking to you anymore. it is your turn.
i am here if you want to talk.