I HAVE HAD AN EPIPHANY!!!!
Well, folks, as soon as I graduate next March, I am moving back to Missouri. When they say that you can never go home again, they are right. Yes, it is good to be here but this is not my home anymore. All my friends are back in Missouri and the job situation back there has got to be 100% better than it is here. Ever since I have moved back to New York it has been an uphill struggle. I have had to give up so many things just to survive. Since I have severe nerve damage behind my right shoulder blade from lifting boxes and residents, I can no longer be a CNA. To sit at a computer will cause my right arm to go completely numb until I move the shoulder to ease the pressure. I already have my flat picked out and have even talk to the manager of the place. My best friend Jess is going to be my ambassador there in Missouri to help get things done on that end. At least I won't have as much stuff to move this time, lol. Right Jenn? At least college is going good - so far. Will be glad to graduate with a Medical Billing and Coding degree and get a decent job. But that will be in Missouri and I can hardly wait to be back home. Look out gravel roads, here I come. The only one who is not going to understand is my friend Bonnie, but I have to do what I think is right for myself. I just wish I had had the backbone to stand up for myself and say "NO" to New York.