Myrandriel: The first in a long while...
It's been much too long since last I wrote in a journal. In fact, the last time I wrote was before I left the Retribution--a decision made in anger, that I am once again regretting, especially considering the past several weeks. Hopefully, I'll be able to speak to Aekatrine or Judeann about returning soon.
Why would I return, especially after my words? Numerous reasons, I suppose, but first and foremost is Andreyn. I've taken to living with him at last (and why I hadn't before, I don't know) but that certainly doesn't close any distance between us when we're apart. The Retribution's guildstone would help me contact him far easier, especially in times of need. Another might be a supplement to my training as a Sentinel. I am satisfactory in following orders, according to Mistrazor, so a better test would naturally be the Retribution. A third reason is overall protection; the members of the Retribution themselves would help to protect me...I hope.
Protection. I know I will be needing it soon in these coming months. Already my belly is beginning to swell, though it's barely noticable. I notice, though, and Andreyn has, too. Within another month, everyone else will.
Yes, I am pregnant. Andreyn is the father, and we have already chosen a name. Alexandros Kyrillien Brightvalor; Alexandros for the Ashbringer, whom Andreyn greatly admires, and Kyrillien for my brother, whom I greatly admire. I suppose the surname might be changed--whether it will be my name, Andreyn's, or both, can be decided after the birth, but truly, Brightvalor seems to fit better.
I just hope Elune's Grace will not take it as our decision to raise him without knowledge of his elven side.
Speaking of Grace...I am free of her at last. With Shakta's strength and Mourne's support, I have driven her out. Rather, I convinced her to retreat wholly from my mind. The invitation, however, still remains--so she says--so I will need to speak with her again. But I will remember the strength I drew from Shakta, and I will not allow her to all but enslave me again. Of course, I'd been sleeping until three days ago; I'm not sure what might have happened during that time.
I hope Mistrazor won't take it too harshly. I'll be returning to my training very soon. Finding an animal companion has been difficult; very few stay with me for very long, contrary to what I might have hoped. Perhaps I will speak to Mourne...
Why would I return, especially after my words? Numerous reasons, I suppose, but first and foremost is Andreyn. I've taken to living with him at last (and why I hadn't before, I don't know) but that certainly doesn't close any distance between us when we're apart. The Retribution's guildstone would help me contact him far easier, especially in times of need. Another might be a supplement to my training as a Sentinel. I am satisfactory in following orders, according to Mistrazor, so a better test would naturally be the Retribution. A third reason is overall protection; the members of the Retribution themselves would help to protect me...I hope.
Protection. I know I will be needing it soon in these coming months. Already my belly is beginning to swell, though it's barely noticable. I notice, though, and Andreyn has, too. Within another month, everyone else will.
Yes, I am pregnant. Andreyn is the father, and we have already chosen a name. Alexandros Kyrillien Brightvalor; Alexandros for the Ashbringer, whom Andreyn greatly admires, and Kyrillien for my brother, whom I greatly admire. I suppose the surname might be changed--whether it will be my name, Andreyn's, or both, can be decided after the birth, but truly, Brightvalor seems to fit better.
I just hope Elune's Grace will not take it as our decision to raise him without knowledge of his elven side.
Speaking of Grace...I am free of her at last. With Shakta's strength and Mourne's support, I have driven her out. Rather, I convinced her to retreat wholly from my mind. The invitation, however, still remains--so she says--so I will need to speak with her again. But I will remember the strength I drew from Shakta, and I will not allow her to all but enslave me again. Of course, I'd been sleeping until three days ago; I'm not sure what might have happened during that time.
I hope Mistrazor won't take it too harshly. I'll be returning to my training very soon. Finding an animal companion has been difficult; very few stay with me for very long, contrary to what I might have hoped. Perhaps I will speak to Mourne...