Everything Falls Apart
...and then I get to try to put it back together...-Everything Falls Apart, Dog's Eye View
I am approaching this evening with a great deal of dread and trepidation. Jason's sister and her daughter get in tonight. They will be staying in this already crowded condo with us. The things scaring me are the sister's past behavior and her inability to accept any responsibility for it. She has not shown respect for her mother's home in the past, underage drinking and driving, going to a ghetto party with people she didn't know and getting so trashed she doesn't remember any of it. It hasn't quite been a year since she left Chicago for Arizona. She supposedly was doing well out there, but, many of the bad influences on her just were not available where she was. Now she is walking back into the candy store.
My daughter is here. I am 33 weeks pregnant. I hope for all of our sakes (including her 2 year old's) I hope she has grown up a little.
I am also scared that I just won't be able to live with her, or that there will be an ugly fight concerning the girls. Beyond that I feel like I am looking to borrow trouble.
On the other paw
a girlfriend of mine from back home is also moving here (well close to here) today as well. Apparently she is moving to a town that is in the same county and about 30 minutes from me. This means I may have a bolt hold for when I just can't deal anymore. It will also be neat to see what she metamorphoses into with no chains around her, no expectations that bind her. The brief glimpses of that person I have had have been good.
I am also a lil bummed because Sian, my better half, offered me a free 2 day trip to LA with her and my midwives won't let me go. LOL. Apparently they consider me at high risk for preterm labor and no one wants you to travel at 36 weeks at all. I think when the trip was planned to happen it would have been 35 weekish. Oh well, I'll get to see people someday, somehow.
At least tonight I don't have to cook. Yay!
I am approaching this evening with a great deal of dread and trepidation. Jason's sister and her daughter get in tonight. They will be staying in this already crowded condo with us. The things scaring me are the sister's past behavior and her inability to accept any responsibility for it. She has not shown respect for her mother's home in the past, underage drinking and driving, going to a ghetto party with people she didn't know and getting so trashed she doesn't remember any of it. It hasn't quite been a year since she left Chicago for Arizona. She supposedly was doing well out there, but, many of the bad influences on her just were not available where she was. Now she is walking back into the candy store.
My daughter is here. I am 33 weeks pregnant. I hope for all of our sakes (including her 2 year old's) I hope she has grown up a little.
I am also scared that I just won't be able to live with her, or that there will be an ugly fight concerning the girls. Beyond that I feel like I am looking to borrow trouble.
On the other paw
a girlfriend of mine from back home is also moving here (well close to here) today as well. Apparently she is moving to a town that is in the same county and about 30 minutes from me. This means I may have a bolt hold for when I just can't deal anymore. It will also be neat to see what she metamorphoses into with no chains around her, no expectations that bind her. The brief glimpses of that person I have had have been good.
I am also a lil bummed because Sian, my better half, offered me a free 2 day trip to LA with her and my midwives won't let me go. LOL. Apparently they consider me at high risk for preterm labor and no one wants you to travel at 36 weeks at all. I think when the trip was planned to happen it would have been 35 weekish. Oh well, I'll get to see people someday, somehow.
At least tonight I don't have to cook. Yay!