[2759 ficlet] Trying to Breathe while Loving You is Like... | #2
Trying to Breath While Loving You is Like…
A 2759 Series
Author ladygizarme
Rating: PG
Fandom: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!
Pairing: 2759
Theme: 126: You were supposed to be watching him!
Words: 404
Genre/s: angst, romance
Warnings: language, potential canon spoilers
Setting: TYL
A/N: Written for 500themes, and part of my 2759 ficlet series (of which not all parts will be in consecutive timeframe, but this one is).
Previous part:
#1.
Disclaimer: I do not own Katekyo Hitman Reborn! or its characters. I make no money from the writing of this fanfiction, and no copyright infringement is intended.
You were supposed to be watching him!
“What the fuck were you doing, idiot?! How could you let this happen?!” Gokudera demands, angrily and desperately, as Yamamoto’s back hits the wall mercilessly.
Yamamoto’s mouth is bleeding, and his ribs are most likely bruising beneath Gokudera’s hands-clenched, demanding and unforgiving, in the front of his shirt. Gokudera wants Yamamoto to fight back-to scream that if Gokudera had been there maybe it wouldn’t- but Yamamoto just stands there mutely, his face and posture so filled with sorrow as he takes Gokudera’s abuse-as if he knows Gokudera’s just searching for a fight to put his anger into so he doesn’t have to face the hopeless reality that Tsuna is dead.
For a split-second, that expression seems to resonate with the terrible ache clawing its burning emptiness into Gokudera’s chest, and his breath catches painfully. But then his face hardens-because no matter how sad Yamamoto may be, it’s nothing compared to the depth of Gokudera’s heartbreak-and he pushes all his feelings that aren’t pure rage into the pit of his stomach to bide their time until he’s no longer surrounded by the people that let Juudaime die. He pulls at Yamamoto’s shirt and smashes him against the wall again, ignoring the voice in the back of his mind that tells him Yamamoto is letting him do this.
Gokudera growls so that his voice doesn’t crack in his distress, because no matter how much he wants to believe he can suppress his other emotions, he can feel them tightening his throat as he asks, “Why didn’t you wait for me?!”
That’s when Yamamoto’s sorrowful expression turns to a horrible look of pity, but the words that leave his mouth shock Gokudera too completely for him to react disdainfully.
“He told us not to.”
Gokudera releases Yamamoto suddenly, like he’s been burned, but the feeling spreading through him like wildfire is so cold, Gokudera has the sensation he’s being frozen from the inside out. He doesn’t realize he’s backing up until there’s something, small and round, pressing into his back.
“If you herbivores are done with this pointless clashing of horns,” Hibari says scornfully, removing the end of his tonfa from Gokudera’s back, “we have business to discuss.”
Without waiting for a reply, the Cloud Guardian leaves the room. Giving Gokudera one more lingering look of pity, Yamamoto follows, finally leaving Gokudera alone to shout his impotent curses to the empty room.
~*~
~next~
A 2759 Series
Author ladygizarme
Rating: PG
Fandom: Katekyo Hitman Reborn!
Pairing: 2759
Theme: 126: You were supposed to be watching him!
Words: 404
Genre/s: angst, romance
Warnings: language, potential canon spoilers
Setting: TYL
A/N: Written for 500themes, and part of my 2759 ficlet series (of which not all parts will be in consecutive timeframe, but this one is).
Previous part:
#1.
Disclaimer: I do not own Katekyo Hitman Reborn! or its characters. I make no money from the writing of this fanfiction, and no copyright infringement is intended.
You were supposed to be watching him!
“What the fuck were you doing, idiot?! How could you let this happen?!” Gokudera demands, angrily and desperately, as Yamamoto’s back hits the wall mercilessly.
Yamamoto’s mouth is bleeding, and his ribs are most likely bruising beneath Gokudera’s hands-clenched, demanding and unforgiving, in the front of his shirt. Gokudera wants Yamamoto to fight back-to scream that if Gokudera had been there maybe it wouldn’t- but Yamamoto just stands there mutely, his face and posture so filled with sorrow as he takes Gokudera’s abuse-as if he knows Gokudera’s just searching for a fight to put his anger into so he doesn’t have to face the hopeless reality that Tsuna is dead.
For a split-second, that expression seems to resonate with the terrible ache clawing its burning emptiness into Gokudera’s chest, and his breath catches painfully. But then his face hardens-because no matter how sad Yamamoto may be, it’s nothing compared to the depth of Gokudera’s heartbreak-and he pushes all his feelings that aren’t pure rage into the pit of his stomach to bide their time until he’s no longer surrounded by the people that let Juudaime die. He pulls at Yamamoto’s shirt and smashes him against the wall again, ignoring the voice in the back of his mind that tells him Yamamoto is letting him do this.
Gokudera growls so that his voice doesn’t crack in his distress, because no matter how much he wants to believe he can suppress his other emotions, he can feel them tightening his throat as he asks, “Why didn’t you wait for me?!”
That’s when Yamamoto’s sorrowful expression turns to a horrible look of pity, but the words that leave his mouth shock Gokudera too completely for him to react disdainfully.
“He told us not to.”
Gokudera releases Yamamoto suddenly, like he’s been burned, but the feeling spreading through him like wildfire is so cold, Gokudera has the sensation he’s being frozen from the inside out. He doesn’t realize he’s backing up until there’s something, small and round, pressing into his back.
“If you herbivores are done with this pointless clashing of horns,” Hibari says scornfully, removing the end of his tonfa from Gokudera’s back, “we have business to discuss.”
Without waiting for a reply, the Cloud Guardian leaves the room. Giving Gokudera one more lingering look of pity, Yamamoto follows, finally leaving Gokudera alone to shout his impotent curses to the empty room.
~*~
~next~