Friendship
I have never been one to consider many people actual friends... but when I call one that, I try my best to be loyal, to be as considerate as I can, and to try and not cause problems for them. My friends, as few as they are, are really important to me.
But why is it when I stop being "perfect", when I have a problem myself... I get thrown into the dirt? Why am I not allowed to be upset? Why is my value to certain people so low no matter what I've tried to do for them? It makes me wonder what the point to anything is... why do I try at all? Maybe if I were more uncaring and treated people unkind, would I be more valued as a friend?
Things are shit for me. If I can't even be human, then what..?
But why is it when I stop being "perfect", when I have a problem myself... I get thrown into the dirt? Why am I not allowed to be upset? Why is my value to certain people so low no matter what I've tried to do for them? It makes me wonder what the point to anything is... why do I try at all? Maybe if I were more uncaring and treated people unkind, would I be more valued as a friend?
Things are shit for me. If I can't even be human, then what..?