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I have grown so tired of things in my life. So tired of giving, and being patient, and only to be walked on and disregarded by others. I have TRIED so hard, in many different avenues of my life.
And for what in the past few months?
-Chronic pain and sickness
-Death of a friend
-Disregard from friends and gf
-Harassment
-Constant reminders of my failure at life from family
-Far too consistently ruined plans
-and now Grandfather given only a few months to live
What is the point of all this? What the hell did I do in a past life to warrant it? I try my damndest to be nice, caring, appreciative, and understanding, but it is only becoming more and more obvious that being a good person does not bring good things into your life.
And for what in the past few months?
-Chronic pain and sickness
-Death of a friend
-Disregard from friends and gf
-Harassment
-Constant reminders of my failure at life from family
-Far too consistently ruined plans
-and now Grandfather given only a few months to live
What is the point of all this? What the hell did I do in a past life to warrant it? I try my damndest to be nice, caring, appreciative, and understanding, but it is only becoming more and more obvious that being a good person does not bring good things into your life.