Fix You 2/?
Title: Fix You 2/?
Length: Chaptered
Author:ladygaffes
Genre: Romance, Angst,
Pairing: YooSu
Rating: Pg-13
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys and the plot was inspired by Cold play's Fix you
Warning: unbeta-ed, a lot of grammar mistakes. if some is volunteering to beta it i'll be glad.
Summary: While his best friend Yoochun tells him "No one can beat the great Junsu in anything he does" Gook Soo his boyfriend tells him "Baby, don’t put too much hope so you won't be disappointed when you'll be told you didn't succeed"
Who Junsu should believe? his best friend or the one he loves and adores?
When you get what you want but not what you need
Junsu opened his eyes slowly, it was dark and he couldn’t remember where he was. He tried to focus but the headache he has wasn’t helping and he was thirsty.
He tried lifting his body but something was preventing him, his right hand was grasped firmly; He looked down but couldn’t see anything until he switched on the bedside lamp. It was Yoochun.
Yoochun was sound asleep on a chair next to his bed, in an uncomfortable position; it mad Junsu feel bad.
-Yoochun ah………….Chunnie~ wake up.
- Junsu? Are you okay?
- I have a headache and I’m thirsty but it’ll go away after I take an aspirin.
- I’ll bring it for you, wait a second.
- No~ you look tired get some proper rest, I’ll manage.
- shut up, and stay still. I’ll be back.
Junsu was rendered to silent, he was too tired to argue and the headache wasn’t helping. He closed his eyes and like lighting the memories stroke his brain. He remembered.
When Yoochun came back, Junsu was sobbing. With a sigh he put down the tray and sat down beside him on the bad.
-What’s wrong Junsu?
Junsu didn’t answer; he just wrapped his arms around Yoochun’s chest and hugged him tightly, when he felt Yoochun cradling his head, the sobs increased.
-Shhh …Calm down, calm down. I’m here, Bunny is here.
Yoochun repeated soothing words like a mantra until Junsu calmed down, and the sobs were reduced to hiccups.
-Can you tell me what happened now?
- I wasn’t casted; they said I’m not good enough. And that they gave the role to someone else.
- I’m sure they didn’t mean it like you understood it Junsu.
- They said I’m not fit to portray Luigi Lucheni.
- Not being fit to portray a character doesn’t mean you’re not a good actor. I’m a musician but I can’t play guitar does that mean I have less talent than someone who could play it? Huh?
- No, you are the best musician I know.
- I believe you when you tell me this. Do you trust me Junsu? Junsu let go of Yoochun to be able to look into his eyes.
-Of Course I trust you Yoochun.
-Even when I say you have a great talent and that you are one of the best musical actors in this country?
- Yes I believe you.
- So why are you crying like that, is there something else I don’t know? Did someone tell you something? Did you talk to Gook Soo shi? Junsu looked down.
- Damn it Junsu, What happened? Yoochun’s voice was firm but at the same time gentle.
-When I came home after the interview Gook Soo shi was going out.
- You told him? The question was more like a whisper; it was like Yoochun knew the answer but didn’t want to hear it.
- Yes, and he told me that he was expecting it and that he told me so; then…
- Then what? Yoochun hugged Junsu when he saw fresh tears falling down his cheeks.
- He left because he promised his friends to go out tonight, and told me to not wait for him because he’ll probably be late.
Junsu felt Yoochun’s grip on him tighten, and his breathing became rapid. Junsu knew this signs; Yoochun was angry, very very angry. And he knew Yoochun was going to give him a lecture on how he was giving in too much and that he needs to talk things out with his boyfriend if he doesn’t want to lose him; that he needs to tell him when he’s upset with him and not take everything in because when a couple’s life is monotonous, sooner or later one of them will get bored and will end the relationship. But Junsu was wrong, he was so very wrong this time.
-Junsu, I’ve had enough of this situation. I give up.
-What do you mean?
- I can’t stand it; it hurts to see you like this over a son of a bitch that didn’t appreciate you when there is someone that is willing to do so much to just be able to see you smile at him. I can’t lie to you anymore by pretending to give you advices on how to maintain your relationship when all I want is you breaking up with him. I can’t handle the fact that you’re not the Junsu I knew. Since the day you fell for that jerk, you changed. Where is the confident Junsu that auditioned for Cinderella’s role in high school? You even managed to persuade the art teacher to give you the role. Where is Junsu that came out the closet to his parent at the age of 14?
Junsu was chocked; he couldn’t comprehend what Yoochun was telling him. And he regretted not taking the aspirin earlier because he had a massive headache again. But he can’t do anything because Yoochun didn’t finish yet
-I used to scold you because you were so impulsive you acted before you think, but you always said that making the wrong choice isn’t bad what’s bad is to not correct it. I know you hate what you become today, but why the fuck didn’t you correct it? Why didn’t you break up with him?
- Because I love him.
Junsu didn’t know why he said that, he felt he needed to defend himself. He was satisfied with the answer until he saw the hurt in Yoochun’s eyes. Why is he regretting it now?
-You are a liar Junsu, You don’t love him. You are a coward that can’t face his mistakes. You always thought that you are good at judging people but not this time. You Thought Gook soo was a gentleman, that he loves you more than anything but it turned out that he’s a player and an unfaithful bastard.
- He’s not. Junsu whispered.
-Yes, he is. Do you think all the times you came to me crying saying that you are stressed over an audition or some dumb excuses I believed you. I knew it was always because he was unfaithful to you. The Junsu I know never stresses over music or acting.
All the defenses that Junsu built to protect himself from the truth that Yoochun blow at his face crumbled, he was suffocating and needed to go away from him. He stood up and tried to the safest and nearest place, the bathroom. But Yoochun prevented him by taking him from both arms.
-Let me go, I need to go.
Junsu’s tears were flowing like a river, he tried to angrily wipe it away but Yoochun’s grip on him was so tight he couldn’t.
-Why are you doing this to me? Why are you hurting me Yoochun? Why do you hate me?
-I’m doing this to you because I love you. I love you more than anything in this world; you are my muse and my inspiration.
-What are you saying? How? Since when?
-Since I first saw you back when we were kids when you smiled at that little cat.in fact I don’t remember any period in my life I wasn’t in love with you.
Junsu was still in shock; he had difficulty breathing and felt dizzy; he needed something to lean on. He took a step forward and pressed his forehead on Yoochun’s left shoulder; he sighed, he felt better now.
-Listen Junsu, I know I was harsh on you but you needed to hear that; I know you always wanted to prove to your parent that you’re not going to regretted the life you choose. That in fact you didn’t choose to be gay but that it was your identity. I know you wanted to show them that homosexuality isn’t a disease. You wanted to be in a relationship with a well-educated guy who has a good carrier to prove that homosexual are normal people. And you got what you want after you introduced your boyfriend to you parent but is it what you really need?
- I don’t know… why is it difficult to answer all your questions? Why can’t I defend myself?
- It’s because you always knew the truth, and I also believe that deep inside you always knew I love you.
Junsu left his head to deny, he would never put Yoochun through all this if he knew his best friend was in live with him. H would never hurt Yoochun because he loved Yoochun, certainly not like the latter loved him but what he feels about Yoochun is still love. Junsu was about to speak when he sensed movement near the bedroom door, His eyes widened. It was Gook Soo and he was looking at them intensely.
A/N: i know it took me a long time to update but i managed to do it at the end *pats head*. i'm not very satisfied with this chapter, so i need you to give your opinions to do better in the next chapter(s).
Thank you to those who read and commented, and also to the silent readers.
Length: Chaptered
Author:ladygaffes
Genre: Romance, Angst,
Pairing: YooSu
Rating: Pg-13
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys and the plot was inspired by Cold play's Fix you
Warning: unbeta-ed, a lot of grammar mistakes. if some is volunteering to beta it i'll be glad.
Summary: While his best friend Yoochun tells him "No one can beat the great Junsu in anything he does" Gook Soo his boyfriend tells him "Baby, don’t put too much hope so you won't be disappointed when you'll be told you didn't succeed"
Who Junsu should believe? his best friend or the one he loves and adores?
When you get what you want but not what you need
Junsu opened his eyes slowly, it was dark and he couldn’t remember where he was. He tried to focus but the headache he has wasn’t helping and he was thirsty.
He tried lifting his body but something was preventing him, his right hand was grasped firmly; He looked down but couldn’t see anything until he switched on the bedside lamp. It was Yoochun.
Yoochun was sound asleep on a chair next to his bed, in an uncomfortable position; it mad Junsu feel bad.
-Yoochun ah………….Chunnie~ wake up.
- Junsu? Are you okay?
- I have a headache and I’m thirsty but it’ll go away after I take an aspirin.
- I’ll bring it for you, wait a second.
- No~ you look tired get some proper rest, I’ll manage.
- shut up, and stay still. I’ll be back.
Junsu was rendered to silent, he was too tired to argue and the headache wasn’t helping. He closed his eyes and like lighting the memories stroke his brain. He remembered.
When Yoochun came back, Junsu was sobbing. With a sigh he put down the tray and sat down beside him on the bad.
-What’s wrong Junsu?
Junsu didn’t answer; he just wrapped his arms around Yoochun’s chest and hugged him tightly, when he felt Yoochun cradling his head, the sobs increased.
-Shhh …Calm down, calm down. I’m here, Bunny is here.
Yoochun repeated soothing words like a mantra until Junsu calmed down, and the sobs were reduced to hiccups.
-Can you tell me what happened now?
- I wasn’t casted; they said I’m not good enough. And that they gave the role to someone else.
- I’m sure they didn’t mean it like you understood it Junsu.
- They said I’m not fit to portray Luigi Lucheni.
- Not being fit to portray a character doesn’t mean you’re not a good actor. I’m a musician but I can’t play guitar does that mean I have less talent than someone who could play it? Huh?
- No, you are the best musician I know.
- I believe you when you tell me this. Do you trust me Junsu? Junsu let go of Yoochun to be able to look into his eyes.
-Of Course I trust you Yoochun.
-Even when I say you have a great talent and that you are one of the best musical actors in this country?
- Yes I believe you.
- So why are you crying like that, is there something else I don’t know? Did someone tell you something? Did you talk to Gook Soo shi? Junsu looked down.
- Damn it Junsu, What happened? Yoochun’s voice was firm but at the same time gentle.
-When I came home after the interview Gook Soo shi was going out.
- You told him? The question was more like a whisper; it was like Yoochun knew the answer but didn’t want to hear it.
- Yes, and he told me that he was expecting it and that he told me so; then…
- Then what? Yoochun hugged Junsu when he saw fresh tears falling down his cheeks.
- He left because he promised his friends to go out tonight, and told me to not wait for him because he’ll probably be late.
Junsu felt Yoochun’s grip on him tighten, and his breathing became rapid. Junsu knew this signs; Yoochun was angry, very very angry. And he knew Yoochun was going to give him a lecture on how he was giving in too much and that he needs to talk things out with his boyfriend if he doesn’t want to lose him; that he needs to tell him when he’s upset with him and not take everything in because when a couple’s life is monotonous, sooner or later one of them will get bored and will end the relationship. But Junsu was wrong, he was so very wrong this time.
-Junsu, I’ve had enough of this situation. I give up.
-What do you mean?
- I can’t stand it; it hurts to see you like this over a son of a bitch that didn’t appreciate you when there is someone that is willing to do so much to just be able to see you smile at him. I can’t lie to you anymore by pretending to give you advices on how to maintain your relationship when all I want is you breaking up with him. I can’t handle the fact that you’re not the Junsu I knew. Since the day you fell for that jerk, you changed. Where is the confident Junsu that auditioned for Cinderella’s role in high school? You even managed to persuade the art teacher to give you the role. Where is Junsu that came out the closet to his parent at the age of 14?
Junsu was chocked; he couldn’t comprehend what Yoochun was telling him. And he regretted not taking the aspirin earlier because he had a massive headache again. But he can’t do anything because Yoochun didn’t finish yet
-I used to scold you because you were so impulsive you acted before you think, but you always said that making the wrong choice isn’t bad what’s bad is to not correct it. I know you hate what you become today, but why the fuck didn’t you correct it? Why didn’t you break up with him?
- Because I love him.
Junsu didn’t know why he said that, he felt he needed to defend himself. He was satisfied with the answer until he saw the hurt in Yoochun’s eyes. Why is he regretting it now?
-You are a liar Junsu, You don’t love him. You are a coward that can’t face his mistakes. You always thought that you are good at judging people but not this time. You Thought Gook soo was a gentleman, that he loves you more than anything but it turned out that he’s a player and an unfaithful bastard.
- He’s not. Junsu whispered.
-Yes, he is. Do you think all the times you came to me crying saying that you are stressed over an audition or some dumb excuses I believed you. I knew it was always because he was unfaithful to you. The Junsu I know never stresses over music or acting.
All the defenses that Junsu built to protect himself from the truth that Yoochun blow at his face crumbled, he was suffocating and needed to go away from him. He stood up and tried to the safest and nearest place, the bathroom. But Yoochun prevented him by taking him from both arms.
-Let me go, I need to go.
Junsu’s tears were flowing like a river, he tried to angrily wipe it away but Yoochun’s grip on him was so tight he couldn’t.
-Why are you doing this to me? Why are you hurting me Yoochun? Why do you hate me?
-I’m doing this to you because I love you. I love you more than anything in this world; you are my muse and my inspiration.
-What are you saying? How? Since when?
-Since I first saw you back when we were kids when you smiled at that little cat.in fact I don’t remember any period in my life I wasn’t in love with you.
Junsu was still in shock; he had difficulty breathing and felt dizzy; he needed something to lean on. He took a step forward and pressed his forehead on Yoochun’s left shoulder; he sighed, he felt better now.
-Listen Junsu, I know I was harsh on you but you needed to hear that; I know you always wanted to prove to your parent that you’re not going to regretted the life you choose. That in fact you didn’t choose to be gay but that it was your identity. I know you wanted to show them that homosexuality isn’t a disease. You wanted to be in a relationship with a well-educated guy who has a good carrier to prove that homosexual are normal people. And you got what you want after you introduced your boyfriend to you parent but is it what you really need?
- I don’t know… why is it difficult to answer all your questions? Why can’t I defend myself?
- It’s because you always knew the truth, and I also believe that deep inside you always knew I love you.
Junsu left his head to deny, he would never put Yoochun through all this if he knew his best friend was in live with him. H would never hurt Yoochun because he loved Yoochun, certainly not like the latter loved him but what he feels about Yoochun is still love. Junsu was about to speak when he sensed movement near the bedroom door, His eyes widened. It was Gook Soo and he was looking at them intensely.
A/N: i know it took me a long time to update but i managed to do it at the end *pats head*. i'm not very satisfied with this chapter, so i need you to give your opinions to do better in the next chapter(s).
Thank you to those who read and commented, and also to the silent readers.