I feel very alone......
I feel very alone right now..... I'm trying to stay involved with my Elementry school friends....but they're all bonding with each other and I don't get to see them very often......they all have the same classes as each other. *sigh* I'm not all obssessive or anything....they're allowed to bond with each other with out me....but when they have parties that I'm not invited to that they keep talking about when I'm RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM, or say, when I'm putting stuff in my locker...talking to my best friend...and then my other friends walk by and only say good bye to HER and ignore ME........it hurts alittle. I thought Friendships lasted forever...but apparently that's only true if your active and throw parties all the time and make all of them believe that your always in a great mood even if you feel like your heart is about to implode from the lack of attention!!!!!! And then there's my Freakshow friends.....I love them to death, they'll never change (I hope)....but I feel like I can't always keep up with them. At least I can always relate to what their talking about. Last year was so different....I was closer to my friends....could make them laugh alot....was always included in what was happening. I don't know.....It's probblie me....I need to try harder at being a good friend and not think about me so much.
This topic makes me want to curl up on the couch with a bag of brownie bites and watch Chickflicks...oh wait...I'm on a diet. Fine....curl up on the couch with a big bag of carrots and watch Chick Flicks.
ANd I'm sorry, BOb, if it sounded like I was boasting in my last entry.....but it was just a rare moment that I don't want to forget....so deal with it!
I'm in a very depressed mood right now.......I think I'll go up stairs, do my homework, practace vocal lessons, and then read some more of "the Death and Life of Superman"...and pretended that I'm Lois and that Clark will sweep me off and carry me to a distant place, away from all of my worries...
bye.....
This topic makes me want to curl up on the couch with a bag of brownie bites and watch Chickflicks...oh wait...I'm on a diet. Fine....curl up on the couch with a big bag of carrots and watch Chick Flicks.
ANd I'm sorry, BOb, if it sounded like I was boasting in my last entry.....but it was just a rare moment that I don't want to forget....so deal with it!
I'm in a very depressed mood right now.......I think I'll go up stairs, do my homework, practace vocal lessons, and then read some more of "the Death and Life of Superman"...and pretended that I'm Lois and that Clark will sweep me off and carry me to a distant place, away from all of my worries...
bye.....