Still alive
Oh my gosh! it's over, its finally over! Crazy for You and Junior Miss! JM was good for the experience and all of the friendships made. This weekend the pindk ladies are getting together at my house and we'll watch "Drop Dead Gorgous" (it's fitting, isn't it?) But Junior Miss brought up alot of emmotional baggage that I thought I had left behind. My ritalin Dr. thinks I need to see a therapist....but I refuse. All I need is a friend to talk to. My mom knows everything that's in my head, but her opinion is biased because she's my loving mother. I need someone not related and understanding enough to talk to. Don't get me wrong, the KCates are great, but their guy-girls, not girly-girls....besides, their off in their own little world with this show coming up...which I have mixed feelings about. But it'll be good.
All of my friends are just the type that say "oh rachel, that's not true, your smart, talented and blah, blah blah" and then leave it alone. I dont want that! I'm not looking for compliments. I just want someone to listen and then say with all of there heart "I understand".
And alison....I can't talk with her. It's like we're in two different worlds...it's been like this since the begining of this year. I can't open up to her because she doesn't open up to me. I know what's going on on the outside, but I have no idea what her life is like on the inside. I guess with sarah having a life of her own now and Adam always being at school, I have no one close to my age to talk to....to REALLY talk to.
I'm ready for college. I'm going to make the most out of these last months at highschool....but then I'm going to be off....and man oh man will I fly!
All of my friends are just the type that say "oh rachel, that's not true, your smart, talented and blah, blah blah" and then leave it alone. I dont want that! I'm not looking for compliments. I just want someone to listen and then say with all of there heart "I understand".
And alison....I can't talk with her. It's like we're in two different worlds...it's been like this since the begining of this year. I can't open up to her because she doesn't open up to me. I know what's going on on the outside, but I have no idea what her life is like on the inside. I guess with sarah having a life of her own now and Adam always being at school, I have no one close to my age to talk to....to REALLY talk to.
I'm ready for college. I'm going to make the most out of these last months at highschool....but then I'm going to be off....and man oh man will I fly!