Revelations 1:1
I had a revelation the other night. For the longest time I thought I had a memory problem since I can never seem to remember things that have happened in my life, or it takes a lot to stir up the dormant memories that have been misplaced in my head. I've come to the conclusion that a lot of things never really even had the chance to be logged in as memories to begin with. I've been told that I do "85 in the fast lane of life, whizzing by all the flowers in the median." I think that pretty well described me, actually. I've always been so focused on getting things done, where I'm going, the end result etc, that I don't enjoy or even take the time to acknowledge the journey. I need to take it down a few gears and make frequent stops or I'll be on my deathbed and wonder what my life was like.
Another thing that was pointed out to me is that I need to stop being such a pessimist about things or I'll always get what I expect (either nothing or failure) I need to change my mindset and cut all my bullshit...I'm so scared of failing at things or being embarrassed that it's paralyzing me. I need to start setting myself goals and actually reaching them, not hide beneath the sheets. So my first goal is to pay attention in EMT class so I actually learn something, not just remember a bunch of words so my mind can flush everything out after passing (a bad habit I had when I was home schooled) So here's to me becoming an EMT, not just trying.
Another thing that was pointed out to me is that I need to stop being such a pessimist about things or I'll always get what I expect (either nothing or failure) I need to change my mindset and cut all my bullshit...I'm so scared of failing at things or being embarrassed that it's paralyzing me. I need to start setting myself goals and actually reaching them, not hide beneath the sheets. So my first goal is to pay attention in EMT class so I actually learn something, not just remember a bunch of words so my mind can flush everything out after passing (a bad habit I had when I was home schooled) So here's to me becoming an EMT, not just trying.