*bangs head against wall*

[ladydragonslaya]

So for some reason when I get into something really good, good for me and just good all together, something in me feels the need to fuck it up. Last night I did some things that shouldn't have been done and I may have fucked up the only good thing I have had going for me in quite some time. And I may have ruined someone else's friendship. I don't know what to do. We have talked and I have tried to explain myself. (Although there is really no excuse) I don't know what's going to happen and I'm probably not going to like what does. I deserve all his anger but I don't know what to do to make it right. Or make it even remotely better.

We were supposed to go to the Christmas party next friday together.. Now he says he doesn't think he's going to go... I don't know what to do.