Life... it seems to come full circle...
So... November 21 i leave for the UP and on the 23 I'll return. alythqueluah and I will be hiking Bruno's run together on the 22. :-) The rest of the weekend is yet unplanned. :-) This will be our first trip together as an official couple. That word is still so odd to me.
Oh yeah... most of y'all have no background on alythqueluah. His name is Chris. We met up at Northland in 1997 and were dating by February 1998, if not sooner. We had a psychology class and were theater geeks together. Somewhere along the way I told him that dating wasn't working out. Truth be told I was head over heals for him and didn't know how to handle it. I broke up with him because I just wasn't ready for all that Chris was.
He dropped off a box of chocolates and a valentine's day card at my dorm room on a night when I wasn't taking visitors. It was the sweetest thing to wake up to the next morning. He doted on me and found away to be near me every day. (Sometimes this was a bit much back then).
I never forgot that feeling I had with him. Honestly, i think I always compared people to him unconsciously.
The people i have been with since have always fallen short. I was afraid they might be too clingy or not around enough. I looked for validation in ways that they just didn't know how to give it. I sabotaged anything that came close yet fell short. No one could give me what i needed. I wasn't sure what i was looking for or what i really wanted.
I started wanting to be back in Wisconsin a few years ago. Something told me i need to go back and reclaim a part of me. I have never made it back to Wisconsin like I want to. Life seems to constantly get in the way. Recently, I received a friend request from Chris on facebook. We facebook chatted one night for hours. It seemed like we had never lost contact. :-) The friendship was alive and well.
We are both walking similar paths in our lives right now. We are both actively involved in and using the TEAM training system. We both share so many interests that it's obvious why we were together in the past. Now.. we are different people yet still great together and its amazing. We started texting back and forth all the way up until the major in Louisville. I walked out of the tool room with butterflies in my stomach. One look from him and i was under a spell. Three hours drifted by without much notice. We buzzed through ten years of life story in no time. We parted ways and I spent the entire address following wondering where he was. I got a hug from him that night as we left the building and plans were being formulated for the next day.
He sat with me and my TEAMmates all through Saturday. We found time to slip away and talk on the concourse or go shopping in the tool room together. Sunday was spent with him and his TEAMmates. :-) I am having a hard time describing how I felt. We text messaged all the way home. :-)
We text way too much every day. I'm just beaming with joy most of the time. I can't even believe this is all happening to me. Somewhere along the way we made it official. :-) In my heart, i was exclusive long before that. I feel like a teenager with her first boyfriend. According to one of my TEAMmates, I appear to be one as well.
This trip is the first of many for us. We have to work hard to be able to take time to enjoy each others company, in person. Eventually, we will be geographically closer to one another. Right now, we just have to make do with the moments we can get.
I can't even fall asleep tonight with so many thoughts swirling around inside my head. Hopefully, this entry has helped to fill y'all in and to give some background to the future stories. :-)
Oh yeah... most of y'all have no background on alythqueluah. His name is Chris. We met up at Northland in 1997 and were dating by February 1998, if not sooner. We had a psychology class and were theater geeks together. Somewhere along the way I told him that dating wasn't working out. Truth be told I was head over heals for him and didn't know how to handle it. I broke up with him because I just wasn't ready for all that Chris was.
He dropped off a box of chocolates and a valentine's day card at my dorm room on a night when I wasn't taking visitors. It was the sweetest thing to wake up to the next morning. He doted on me and found away to be near me every day. (Sometimes this was a bit much back then).
I never forgot that feeling I had with him. Honestly, i think I always compared people to him unconsciously.
The people i have been with since have always fallen short. I was afraid they might be too clingy or not around enough. I looked for validation in ways that they just didn't know how to give it. I sabotaged anything that came close yet fell short. No one could give me what i needed. I wasn't sure what i was looking for or what i really wanted.
I started wanting to be back in Wisconsin a few years ago. Something told me i need to go back and reclaim a part of me. I have never made it back to Wisconsin like I want to. Life seems to constantly get in the way. Recently, I received a friend request from Chris on facebook. We facebook chatted one night for hours. It seemed like we had never lost contact. :-) The friendship was alive and well.
We are both walking similar paths in our lives right now. We are both actively involved in and using the TEAM training system. We both share so many interests that it's obvious why we were together in the past. Now.. we are different people yet still great together and its amazing. We started texting back and forth all the way up until the major in Louisville. I walked out of the tool room with butterflies in my stomach. One look from him and i was under a spell. Three hours drifted by without much notice. We buzzed through ten years of life story in no time. We parted ways and I spent the entire address following wondering where he was. I got a hug from him that night as we left the building and plans were being formulated for the next day.
He sat with me and my TEAMmates all through Saturday. We found time to slip away and talk on the concourse or go shopping in the tool room together. Sunday was spent with him and his TEAMmates. :-) I am having a hard time describing how I felt. We text messaged all the way home. :-)
We text way too much every day. I'm just beaming with joy most of the time. I can't even believe this is all happening to me. Somewhere along the way we made it official. :-) In my heart, i was exclusive long before that. I feel like a teenager with her first boyfriend. According to one of my TEAMmates, I appear to be one as well.
This trip is the first of many for us. We have to work hard to be able to take time to enjoy each others company, in person. Eventually, we will be geographically closer to one another. Right now, we just have to make do with the moments we can get.
I can't even fall asleep tonight with so many thoughts swirling around inside my head. Hopefully, this entry has helped to fill y'all in and to give some background to the future stories. :-)