here we go here we gooooOo
so with girls its a little tough for me to socialize with its jsut me i guess because i've noticed that girls seem to get along with me, or im jsut a jerk that doesnt CHOOSE to get along...but i try. i try because i miss having a nice group of womenly ladies to talk to about sex and girl things and its hard to not have that, coz i cannot go into detail about my like personal comparisons and such to girly ways that i have and would sound off to tell boys or even my own b/f.
with that... ive been trying to make nice and befriend this awesome girl, but it seems she slightly brushes me off, ie; deleting any comments i leave on her myspace pics, only seeing her around with certain folks, and i usually am the the i think to approach her for conversations and they dont last long...
in her case she seems to also have a close 3some groups of girly pals (ew u know what i mean..) and seeing that makes me actually feel more alone.
the thing is, i had that since i was like in 3rd grade, had and knew plenty of girly friends and all, and then now i sit here trying to every once in a whiles see my old girl pals and all, while this girl who will remain nameless as an example has what seems like many girl freeiiindss, so i duno. maybe life works that way to have and hold a close bond in early parts or maybe even much later parts in life and to have loneliness along certain paths. all i know is that i could use more women like feedback and go shopping and primp up and you get the picture, i need to do more of that, but not jsut with my own b/f just to do so with friends. i feel as if theres something wrong with me, its a void, and now i've pinpointed it. argh.
that was the most awkwardly rant for myself ever.
with that... ive been trying to make nice and befriend this awesome girl, but it seems she slightly brushes me off, ie; deleting any comments i leave on her myspace pics, only seeing her around with certain folks, and i usually am the the i think to approach her for conversations and they dont last long...
in her case she seems to also have a close 3some groups of girly pals (ew u know what i mean..) and seeing that makes me actually feel more alone.
the thing is, i had that since i was like in 3rd grade, had and knew plenty of girly friends and all, and then now i sit here trying to every once in a whiles see my old girl pals and all, while this girl who will remain nameless as an example has what seems like many girl freeiiindss, so i duno. maybe life works that way to have and hold a close bond in early parts or maybe even much later parts in life and to have loneliness along certain paths. all i know is that i could use more women like feedback and go shopping and primp up and you get the picture, i need to do more of that, but not jsut with my own b/f just to do so with friends. i feel as if theres something wrong with me, its a void, and now i've pinpointed it. argh.
that was the most awkwardly rant for myself ever.