Save me from having a full fledged panic attack
Okay, so my grandpa came home from the doctors today to check on his cancer. They wanted him on Chemo like right this second, but he was all ah no. So they gave him something to take for a few months. They want him on chemo no later then June though. This of course, freaks me out. My living situation isn't like that of others. I live with my two elderly grandparents, both of whom have problems. Grandpa with his cancer and kindey problems, and grandma with her Alzhiemers. I don't have parents that I can turn to for help our guidence. So, I mean what the fuck am I supposed to do if something happens to my grandpa? I'm trying to go to school so I can get a job as a teacher, but if she gets really bad, who will take care of her? I am loathe to have some strange woman come in and keep an eye on her, so that leaves her sisters.
I don't want to have to send my grandma to live with them, so that leaves them to come down here to stay and maybe trade off. I dunno. I'm just freaking out because I don't know if my grandfather is strong neough to handle chemo and hang in their for us. I don't know if my grandma is strong enough to survive without him. I don't know if I'm strong enough to survive without THEM.
I don't want to have to send my grandma to live with them, so that leaves them to come down here to stay and maybe trade off. I dunno. I'm just freaking out because I don't know if my grandfather is strong neough to handle chemo and hang in their for us. I don't know if my grandma is strong enough to survive without him. I don't know if I'm strong enough to survive without THEM.