darkest before dawn...
well thanks to some events that unfolded this afternoon, i had my breakdown. i cracked.
but its okay, im not okay, and i am dealing with that. i have alot of pressure to deal with, as did most of you this time last year (or at least some point in time last year) and most assuredly now, with moving out of your homes and striking out on your own.
i will be okay. things are changing in my life, (and no- that's not in reference to me leaving trey for justin or in anyway related to somehow connotating me being in love with justin, okay logan?) and i am taking hold of what is happening around me. from now on things won't happend to me, i will make things happen.
things are looking up for me.
its al been going downhill for sometime, but it really does get darkestbefore dawn. logan orchastrated my darkest hour. but i have the last laugh. my life is turning around, and things will be once again within my grasp and control. so if you thought i was bad to live with before, you better hang on. just wait and see what i will be like with confidence and self assurance. wait and see what i will be like when i am comfortable with who i am and how i act\look\feel. i won't tolerate things like last night to get the better of me. i will come out on top.
but thanks for being the one to break my spirit and make me wish i was dead. that's where you have to start if you wanna be reborn i guess. but maybe you'll better about yourself having read that you got to me. i hope so. because then i will be able to bring more happiness into the lives of others. even if its yours. i am the winner. yay!
but its okay, im not okay, and i am dealing with that. i have alot of pressure to deal with, as did most of you this time last year (or at least some point in time last year) and most assuredly now, with moving out of your homes and striking out on your own.
i will be okay. things are changing in my life, (and no- that's not in reference to me leaving trey for justin or in anyway related to somehow connotating me being in love with justin, okay logan?) and i am taking hold of what is happening around me. from now on things won't happend to me, i will make things happen.
things are looking up for me.
its al been going downhill for sometime, but it really does get darkestbefore dawn. logan orchastrated my darkest hour. but i have the last laugh. my life is turning around, and things will be once again within my grasp and control. so if you thought i was bad to live with before, you better hang on. just wait and see what i will be like with confidence and self assurance. wait and see what i will be like when i am comfortable with who i am and how i act\look\feel. i won't tolerate things like last night to get the better of me. i will come out on top.
but thanks for being the one to break my spirit and make me wish i was dead. that's where you have to start if you wanna be reborn i guess. but maybe you'll better about yourself having read that you got to me. i hope so. because then i will be able to bring more happiness into the lives of others. even if its yours. i am the winner. yay!