bitching and complaining...take me as i am or leave me be
so you know you need to get a life when your 52 year old mom goes out with friends more than you do....and she tells you that you need to get a life...sooo one of my new years resolutions is to try to make new friends and pledge and get involved at school..not that i have a ton of problems with the old ones...i just feel left out of their loop now and then and invited in when its convenient for them...thats how i feel...so don't tell me to grow up or anything..because i feel like i'll get a few of those..i also feel that one needs more than what i have....i am also extremly stressed...two jobs plus classes sucks ass...but it SUCKS..why cant i be rich and not have to save money for books and a parking pass and credit card bills and cell phone bills...and of course i had to pick the guy whose birthday is a week after christmas and then the half anniversery is 24 days later followed by valentines day....but anyway if you know me..you know that as an only child i need to talk and visit other people...because i live in a house with one other person...who as i mentioned before goes out more than i do...i have Matt but no girl wants to hang out with a guy all the time....and once again as an only child whose mother drove her crazy to get straight A's has a fear of rejection and failure...so i'll try to do the towson thing again...and if that doesnt work out then my mom said that she is willing to pay for out of state school...or in state school but not close by...i think that i can grow if i'm out on my own...living here i feel like i did in high school- living under a microscope being forced to be perfect when infact i'm not...i just wish that life was easier....so if any of you are going to become a shrink...you'll make tons of money off of me in a few years...and more than likely my children and their children as well