ARGHHHH
soo i've been hating life lately...well maybe not hating it but wishing it was better...i wish that it was like it used to be...like high school or atleast my freshman year of college...i had very few responsibilites and life was just easier...and i had people...now i have a person...not that i mind having this person...i love this person a ton...but it was nice when i had people...and now that i am at school number 3 in my 3rd year...there are no more people for me...they have their friends and whatnot and i am just there in the midst of it all. i'm only in school for class...then i leave class and go to work..then i go home and do homework..then go to bed...then wake up...do more homework...then go to work..go home....its a neverending crappy cycle...i am an only child...i have only child syndrome...i need to be around people and have people be around me...you have no idea how crazy i'm going not having any contact with friends (i'm not even sure i still have any)...well at least i'll have greys anatomy next week...anyway i don't get to see meagan because of work and the fact that we don't go to the same school anymore...the other meaghan has class on different days and works extremely far away....i can't go out with jess because she's 21 and i cant get into the clubs anymore...i haven't talked to katie and tee in awhile...i'll have to call them...meg and i never really hung out one on one but still she can make me smile...which isn't very easy...and LISA!! my favoritest lisa in the world...goes to maryland and now i'm at towson...and i don't have a fantabulous sport to play anymore...and brandi..i don't even know where that is anymore...so anyway i think i'm going back to maryland or to sacred heart...i need to get away...i can't stay within baltimore county for my entire life...its driving me crazy...granted i spent way to much time with matt over the past year and drifted away from people...but i didnt realize it at the time...i was "young and in love" but now the honeymoon phase is over and i need my girlfriends...and i feel like they don't need me...thats the end of my rant...i actually feel almost better