not a moment too soon

[ladycreirwry]

Wish I was too dead to cry
my self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
if indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
so you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
my flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
one good turn deserves my dying
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds
Wish i'd died instead of lived
a zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with its memories
diaries left with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother, I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther, But once I hold on...
I'll never live down
My Deceit

Ren faire couldn't have come a moment too soon, so many things are happening. But if i'm on your friends list then it's most likely because Micah put me there, I have no reason to explain to you what is going on. I had just typed a long rant of my own offering advice to 3 people, you know who you are. However, my advice isn't asked for and i'm sure you're sick of hearing it. So I erased it. No one will read this but Micah anyway. I take no sides. But if worst comes to worst and I must, i gotsa ta stick wit my gangsta. Slainte.

how sad, the only time i write in My journal is to help others.