Falling Is Easy, It's Getting Back Up That Becomes The Problem...
Its been an extremely stressful and fast paced couple of weeks. I find myself not sitting down and relaxing for just one day. I work, eat and sleep. I am exhausted. I hang out with Mari, but I find myself always falling asleep. I cant keep myself going anymore. I am working 35-40 hour weeks and still trying to keep up with my medicine so i wont have to have any operations on my intestines. All this time i am being told gall bladder and it turns out to be something that cant be a quick fix. it always happens this way. it really does. i am being ordered to take iron supplements b/c my iron levels in my blood are dangerously low. I have bruises up and down my legs and arms where if anything touches me with the tiniest bit of force it turns me black and blue. i need a vacation to get my mind of money troubles, work and all the other bullshit around me. i wanna go lay on the beach and relax. but that will never happen. i don't even have enough money to go to tennessee. Life is so short and i feel like i am missing out on it. Life isn't about the stupid petty arguments, its about forgiveness. don't miss out being friends with someone because of something stupid or childish. life is hard, i'm not gonna lie, but if you don't take time to stop and look around you might just miss everything. Now i'm not saying all this for you all to feel sorry for me and i'm not trying to give everyone a revelation about their life. If it does help you then great, if not then just live your life. This is something i have experienced and wanted to express. As far as i am concerned everyone who has hurt me or screwed me over in life has a clean slate. everyone deserves a second chance, hell third of fourth for some people. i am tired of holding these grudges and resentments. it's only weighing me down. I want the weigh of my shoulders. I love you all and wish you the best in wherever life takes you. goodnight everyone...
Love Always,
Gwen
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
and you had everything to lose
Love Always,
Gwen
yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
and you had everything to lose