Nieces and Nephews

[ladycaramel08]

I've been thinking about this for a while now. While I'm certain (well, at least the moment) I don't want children, I'm kind of upset I won't have any nieces or nephews. I just don't see my second eldest sister ever having children. She has told me she doesn't like children and while I have said this, I feel it may be more true for her. She is seeing someone, but he doesn't seem to be a children person either (I've never met him, this is just on what I have heard). If I'm being honest, they both seem a little "young." They are both older than me, but mentally they both seem young. I don 't know. Maybe it's just my impression. My eldest sister, as far as I know, is not seeing anyone. She is 37. I'm not saying you have to find "true love" by then. In fact, I don't believe anyone has to be in a relationship by a certain time frame or at all, because contrary to popular societal beliefs, that just doesn't happen for everyone and should it not, it doesn't mean the people it doesn't happen to will be forever unhappy or miserable throughout their single lives. (please excuse that mini rant). But my sister did say that if she didn't find someone by the time she was forty, she would "give up" on children. Apparently my mother has suggested that she adopt at one point. Which I think is dumb. I'm being honest, I love my oldest sister, but she can not budget her money. She is a third grade teacher. Sure, teachers are underpaid, but it's just her. She has student loans, with which I completely empathize. She has a car payment, car insurance. Completely understandable. She needs reliable transportation. What she does not need, however, is a blackberry or whatever type of phone she has (I'm sorry, but I really don't know/care about phones). She does not need 900 channels on her television. And she sure as hell does not need to get fast food as often as she does. None of these things would be of too much concern if they were inhibiting her financially. She called me four days ago from a random number to tell me that her cell and house phone weren't working. I didn't ask why, but later I found out she had to spend "over 300 dollars" on dental work, so she knew something wasn't going to get paid. First, take care of your teeth. Second, you should have savings. Indeed times are hard, but you know you don't get paid through the summer unless you happen to find a summer teaching job. Budget your money. Maybe I am being too harsh, but come on. Make smarter decisions.  Anyway, what was my point? Oh yeah, as of right now, I do not think my sister should adopt because she does not have money to support herself, much less another person. 
So even though I go on about how I'm not really a fan of children. I sort of am. In that I would like to have a small person to spoil. Someone I can teach things to and can ask their opinions about. Someone I can see grow. Someone I can be proud of. Why not have my own? Well, I would like to have the opportunity to return the child. I'm pretty sure I would get to a point where I would be like "uh...what do I do now?" 
Well, that is that. :)