Goodbye Grandma
I found out today that my grandma passed away yesterday evening. I knew as soon as I opened my hotmail account and it showed that I got an email from both of my aunts....before I even got to my inbox. They never send me mail. Or at least not if it isn't a reply to an email I sent them. Subject lines gave it away too.
I feel bad. A month ago I had emailed my aunt about something and she told me that my grandma was in the hospital. That she had broken her hip three weeks prior. She was most likely bleeding interiorly cause she needed two pints of blood. And she also had pneumonia. We didn't go down to visit her, which I feel awful about. I sent her a get well card. Even had Kailee color a picture for her. When I talked to my aunt she said that her heart was getting bad (she had a couple bypasses in the past) and that she wasn't eating. Near the end she was not even talking. She was just there. I knew she was sick and yet I didn't visit her.
Last time I saw her was on Christmas Eve. I knew that it was just a matter of time. She had been slowly going downhill for years. Probably since my grandfather's death in October of 2000. My grandfather passed away a couple days after we saw him last. Many of my relatives think that he was waiting to see Kailee before he let go. That he wanted to meet her before he went. (Kailee was five weeks old when he got to meet her). I guess that is true. We visited him October 8th and he passed away on the 10th.
My grandma seemed fine at Christmas. She was laughing and joking. Though I could tell her memory was really going but she was better than the previous Christmas. I should have gone to the hospital to see her. I regret not going.
I take comfort in the fact that she is now with my grandpap and my mom. She will be buried beside my grandpap, who is actually right beside my mom. I remember when they were both alive that they jokingly fought over who would be buried beside my mom. It is also odd that my grandpap passed away two weeks before the anniversary of my mom's death. And my grandma passed away a few days before my mom's birthday.
I was debating whether to go this weekend to my mom's grave for mother's day and her birthday, which is on Tuesday. Or to go next weekend. Looks like I will be there on my mom's birthday for my grandma's funeral. Can't say I like fate's way of deciding that for me.
I love you Grandma. You will be missed greatly!
I feel bad. A month ago I had emailed my aunt about something and she told me that my grandma was in the hospital. That she had broken her hip three weeks prior. She was most likely bleeding interiorly cause she needed two pints of blood. And she also had pneumonia. We didn't go down to visit her, which I feel awful about. I sent her a get well card. Even had Kailee color a picture for her. When I talked to my aunt she said that her heart was getting bad (she had a couple bypasses in the past) and that she wasn't eating. Near the end she was not even talking. She was just there. I knew she was sick and yet I didn't visit her.
Last time I saw her was on Christmas Eve. I knew that it was just a matter of time. She had been slowly going downhill for years. Probably since my grandfather's death in October of 2000. My grandfather passed away a couple days after we saw him last. Many of my relatives think that he was waiting to see Kailee before he let go. That he wanted to meet her before he went. (Kailee was five weeks old when he got to meet her). I guess that is true. We visited him October 8th and he passed away on the 10th.
My grandma seemed fine at Christmas. She was laughing and joking. Though I could tell her memory was really going but she was better than the previous Christmas. I should have gone to the hospital to see her. I regret not going.
I take comfort in the fact that she is now with my grandpap and my mom. She will be buried beside my grandpap, who is actually right beside my mom. I remember when they were both alive that they jokingly fought over who would be buried beside my mom. It is also odd that my grandpap passed away two weeks before the anniversary of my mom's death. And my grandma passed away a few days before my mom's birthday.
I was debating whether to go this weekend to my mom's grave for mother's day and her birthday, which is on Tuesday. Or to go next weekend. Looks like I will be there on my mom's birthday for my grandma's funeral. Can't say I like fate's way of deciding that for me.
I love you Grandma. You will be missed greatly!