O, my foolish heart....
I was just looking over my last few entries...especially the mushy one(s), and it saddens me that I find them undeniably immature. Unfortunately, I have come the to the reluctant realization that I am not what I wish to be. Smart, kind, mature, sweet--- the things that I aim for are farther out of reach than I thought they were. Perhaps my precious ego has blinded me, after a fashion. I have become a trenchant, sarcastic person who isn't as good at being honest with herself as she first believed, and, going by a certain entry on this page, perhaps a little bitter. Hindsight's 20/20, and i'm sure that more than a few of you are aware of some of the not-completely-wise-but-very-completely-hormone-driven decisions i made. Lol. I wonder what the heck i was thinking when i reflect on some of them, but i can't change the past. I can only hope that sometime in the future i can keep my hormones and my heart in check long enough to really better myself.OK, this is getting long, and i'm tired, so i'll leave you now (not that anyone reads this). anyway. I leave you with my love.
-vicky
-vicky