Meaning Well
I really do mean to post more, but time runs away from me!
My life feels very chaotic right now. I've always been prone to one or two bouts of highly irritating depression once or twice a year, but it almost never coincides with the holidays. So of course, this year it is hitting extra hard just in time for them. And it's been triggered by situations both at work and in my personal life, so of course it's worse than normal. Bad Depression! Leave me alone! To make matters worse, I'm also suffering pre-scan anxiety about my next CT SCAN which takes place in January. I really don't have the time or energy for this right now. I wonder if visualization would help me beat it into submission...
I've been planning a trip to Arizona with a close friend for the past several weeks. And today, when I go to meet her with the expectations of booking our flight, she tells me that she doesn't want to go. And naturally, it's exactly two weeks before my vacation starts so I really have no time to plan an alternate trip with someone else. Flights at this point will likely be outrageous and I doubt any of my other friends can take off of work with less than two weeks notice. I was really really really looking forward to this trip. It's my last chance to get a vacation in for a very very very very long time due to the current goings-on at work. And not only that, the trip was to coincide with my birthday. This is actually the second year in a row that this has happened to me. Last year, my sister backed out of a trip we were planning with little notice, but in my mind she had much better reason. Even though I don't want to, I really can't help but take this personally right now. Apparently she made this decision a while ago but waited until now to tell me.
So, anyone want a visitor during the first week of January?
Crap it's 2AM! I need to take a shower! I have a photo shoot tomorrow with a local newspaper, Velocity. They are doing a little feature about me and the photographer is coming to the bakery in the morning to photograph me amongst my cakes!
And last but definitely not least:
If anyone in Louisville knows someone looking for work, afternoon and evening hours, please send them my way. And if they have management experience, that'd be even better!
My life feels very chaotic right now. I've always been prone to one or two bouts of highly irritating depression once or twice a year, but it almost never coincides with the holidays. So of course, this year it is hitting extra hard just in time for them. And it's been triggered by situations both at work and in my personal life, so of course it's worse than normal. Bad Depression! Leave me alone! To make matters worse, I'm also suffering pre-scan anxiety about my next CT SCAN which takes place in January. I really don't have the time or energy for this right now. I wonder if visualization would help me beat it into submission...
I've been planning a trip to Arizona with a close friend for the past several weeks. And today, when I go to meet her with the expectations of booking our flight, she tells me that she doesn't want to go. And naturally, it's exactly two weeks before my vacation starts so I really have no time to plan an alternate trip with someone else. Flights at this point will likely be outrageous and I doubt any of my other friends can take off of work with less than two weeks notice. I was really really really looking forward to this trip. It's my last chance to get a vacation in for a very very very very long time due to the current goings-on at work. And not only that, the trip was to coincide with my birthday. This is actually the second year in a row that this has happened to me. Last year, my sister backed out of a trip we were planning with little notice, but in my mind she had much better reason. Even though I don't want to, I really can't help but take this personally right now. Apparently she made this decision a while ago but waited until now to tell me.
So, anyone want a visitor during the first week of January?
Crap it's 2AM! I need to take a shower! I have a photo shoot tomorrow with a local newspaper, Velocity. They are doing a little feature about me and the photographer is coming to the bakery in the morning to photograph me amongst my cakes!
And last but definitely not least:
If anyone in Louisville knows someone looking for work, afternoon and evening hours, please send them my way. And if they have management experience, that'd be even better!