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Hi everyone....
It is Saturday morning and I have been up since 5:25.... why I'm not sure. ugh!! I hate mornings lately that's when my mind races, and it just doesn't need to.
So as I'm typing, I look up at Saturday morning, and it makes me think about Saturday morning cartoons. How awesome was getting up early and hanging out in your p.j's watching cartoons. Sometimes I'd chow down on cereal, but usually Saturday was homemade breakfast day. We were home for school and so was my mom so she would make pancakes or french toast, eggs.... something
ok, that was random... haha!!
This week has been tough, I feel that my "emotional dam" is starting to crack. I so don't want to feel what I fear is behind that dam.
I' m trying to chew as much gum to cover those cracks.
I have really fallen in love with a guy at work... lets call him turtle... I know I know I do!! hehe. I've been falling for about 22 months.
and, he freaked out when I first started liking him, and began acting like an ass... no really. My heart hurt. Then I changed the way I approached him. the last 5 months he's been treating me better. The last 2.5 weeks he has been one of the biggest supporters in my life. always there, and the funny thing he pretty much knows when to be soft or a smart ass. Yesterday I was getting ready to leave work, and we had talked earlier in the day. We cracked jokes, and plenty of "I'm sorries" anyways we were leaving work, and he said "you don't ever have to fake smile with me." I told him that I was ok, that I was not fake smiling. we shared a joke, and then it happened. he said "Come here" I said "what?" he said "Come here" and then he opened his arms to me. *sigh* i gave him a hug it wasn't a half assed hug either,and his one hand got a little swoopy *flail*
All I want to do is talk to him!!
Ever since I lost my sister, I have realized that I don't want to lose him... at least a chance with him. "oh my heart is going to shatter in tiny unrecognizable pieces, isn't it?!!e
So far this morning..t.. i have watched I love Lucy, ghost whisperer, a reunion show, and interview with Shaun White, watch Lady Antebellum sing, watch Project Runway and now onto Castle. It is now 8:30.... yay me!!!
*FIMH*
It is Saturday morning and I have been up since 5:25.... why I'm not sure. ugh!! I hate mornings lately that's when my mind races, and it just doesn't need to.
So as I'm typing, I look up at Saturday morning, and it makes me think about Saturday morning cartoons. How awesome was getting up early and hanging out in your p.j's watching cartoons. Sometimes I'd chow down on cereal, but usually Saturday was homemade breakfast day. We were home for school and so was my mom so she would make pancakes or french toast, eggs.... something
ok, that was random... haha!!
This week has been tough, I feel that my "emotional dam" is starting to crack. I so don't want to feel what I fear is behind that dam.
I' m trying to chew as much gum to cover those cracks.
I have really fallen in love with a guy at work... lets call him turtle... I know I know I do!! hehe. I've been falling for about 22 months.
and, he freaked out when I first started liking him, and began acting like an ass... no really. My heart hurt. Then I changed the way I approached him. the last 5 months he's been treating me better. The last 2.5 weeks he has been one of the biggest supporters in my life. always there, and the funny thing he pretty much knows when to be soft or a smart ass. Yesterday I was getting ready to leave work, and we had talked earlier in the day. We cracked jokes, and plenty of "I'm sorries" anyways we were leaving work, and he said "you don't ever have to fake smile with me." I told him that I was ok, that I was not fake smiling. we shared a joke, and then it happened. he said "Come here" I said "what?" he said "Come here" and then he opened his arms to me. *sigh* i gave him a hug it wasn't a half assed hug either,and his one hand got a little swoopy *flail*
All I want to do is talk to him!!
Ever since I lost my sister, I have realized that I don't want to lose him... at least a chance with him. "oh my heart is going to shatter in tiny unrecognizable pieces, isn't it?!!e
So far this morning..t.. i have watched I love Lucy, ghost whisperer, a reunion show, and interview with Shaun White, watch Lady Antebellum sing, watch Project Runway and now onto Castle. It is now 8:30.... yay me!!!
*FIMH*