liposuction? yes please!
Since I'm not loosing weight THAT quickly (I swear my metabolism is dead), I've decided to try the South Beach Diet. I've been inspired by Amber (she looks fabulous!). And I've decided I NEED to go to the gym EVERYDAY. I have to push myself. I just have to. Not only because I know I'll feel better about myself but because I know the status of my health hangs in the balance. Believe me, it's so frustrating. It's like you try to look back to see where you went horribly wrong. I shouldnt have stopped swimming. I shouldnt have been eating so late @ night. I should have stayed more active. Ugh. Makes me so mad. It's like I'm too frustrated to be depressed about my weight. I want to look stunning in my wedding gown. Even tho I know Noah loves me exactly how I am, I'm not doing this for him or for societies acceptance or anyone else. I'm doing this for me & me alone.
I dont think it helps that I found a bunch of old high school friends online & I've seen their fabulous pics. I swear all of them must have had cosmetic surgery at one time or another. Their faces are so tight. Their noses perfect & small. Their tits sit high & dont giggle. They look plastic. And lord do they wear alot of make up. I feel crappy cause I dont wear make up at all. I think I have good skin & I dont want to mess it up any. I mean I wear lipstick but not that cakey face crap.
:Sigh: I'm just ranting. I just wish it was easier then it really is. Damn food.
I dont think it helps that I found a bunch of old high school friends online & I've seen their fabulous pics. I swear all of them must have had cosmetic surgery at one time or another. Their faces are so tight. Their noses perfect & small. Their tits sit high & dont giggle. They look plastic. And lord do they wear alot of make up. I feel crappy cause I dont wear make up at all. I think I have good skin & I dont want to mess it up any. I mean I wear lipstick but not that cakey face crap.
:Sigh: I'm just ranting. I just wish it was easier then it really is. Damn food.