can't quite put my finger on it
I'm in one of those "moods" today. Not like a bad mood, more like a "blah" mood. It's been a rough week for me. Not physically rough but more along the lines of mentally rough.
I've gotten to the age where I need to pick my true friends from the aquaintances. There are few people I'd actually turn to in my time of need. And of course I have had my ups and downs with all my friends but there are a few that I know that no matter what they will always be there for me. For about 3 months now I've been in regular contact (via email) with my college roomie Tina. She and I have known each other for about 5-6 years now. It's nice to reconnect with someone you have a special bond with. I def. want Noah to meet her. And she will be coming to the wedding, she's on my list already. The wedding made me realize who my true friends are. They are people I couldnt imagine not being at the most special day in my life.
I know right now Samantha and I are having our differences but I can't imagine her not standing by myside on my special day. Same goes with Nikki (Nikki and I talk almost daily via IM's). Nikki's like a little sister to me. I try to guide her through life and steer her far away from danger. And again, just recently I started talking more to Freshta again. And GOD knows Freshta and I have had our differences. But I guess thats what a friendship is all about. Working through those differences and still remaining close. And how could I ever forget about Jennifer (J). She and I are total opposites and still we can relate on some level or another. She gives awesome advice and sometimes knows exactly wtf is going on in my head. She has helped me through many fights with Noah. And I am very thankful for that. The only person that is missing from this list is Lyza. Dear old Lyza Sanchez. She and I have been friends for just about 10 years. She is 2 years younger then me and I absolutely love that girl. She has a little boy named Jonathan who just turned 2. Oh man I have been through so much with that girl. And I'll most likely ask her to become apart of my wedding. I'm trying desperately to keep my bridal party # down but for some reason it's not working. Maybe I can have Lyza and Tina do special readings during the ceremony. That would be nice. But I'm seriously thinking of adding 2 more girls to my bridal party. Maybe Noah can add another guy (since my sister is walking down the aisle alone...she's the Matron of Honor). He can add Ben to the party! Bwahaha. Oh wait, you guys dont know about Ben. I forgot! Oh but you will soon learn about him. He's a real work of art (not in the good looking way, in the personality way). Ok enough about all that now.
I really do miss Noah though. I HATE being this far apart from him. Hate it with a passion actually. It's like I'm not complete without him. Like that song "...everytime you go away, you take a piece of me with you..." Is that it? I think so. I just want him to be in Vegas full time. I want us to start our lives out here. It'll be so wonderful once he's here for good. I'll be a very happy Natty. :-D
WTF. I've gotten 5 delieveries today of flowers (for 5 different people). Someone send me flowers. I want to feel special. If you need my address just let me know! Haha. Oh man these are pretty roses too. I feel left out. Is today "flower day" or something? I'm logging onto 1800 Flowers right now and I'm going to send myself flowers. Wouldnt that be funny. Have them put on the card "from your secret admirer". Oh man I'd get a real kick out of watching everyones faces. Ok I'm talking crazy now. Time for lunch. Ciao.
I've gotten to the age where I need to pick my true friends from the aquaintances. There are few people I'd actually turn to in my time of need. And of course I have had my ups and downs with all my friends but there are a few that I know that no matter what they will always be there for me. For about 3 months now I've been in regular contact (via email) with my college roomie Tina. She and I have known each other for about 5-6 years now. It's nice to reconnect with someone you have a special bond with. I def. want Noah to meet her. And she will be coming to the wedding, she's on my list already. The wedding made me realize who my true friends are. They are people I couldnt imagine not being at the most special day in my life.
I know right now Samantha and I are having our differences but I can't imagine her not standing by myside on my special day. Same goes with Nikki (Nikki and I talk almost daily via IM's). Nikki's like a little sister to me. I try to guide her through life and steer her far away from danger. And again, just recently I started talking more to Freshta again. And GOD knows Freshta and I have had our differences. But I guess thats what a friendship is all about. Working through those differences and still remaining close. And how could I ever forget about Jennifer (J). She and I are total opposites and still we can relate on some level or another. She gives awesome advice and sometimes knows exactly wtf is going on in my head. She has helped me through many fights with Noah. And I am very thankful for that. The only person that is missing from this list is Lyza. Dear old Lyza Sanchez. She and I have been friends for just about 10 years. She is 2 years younger then me and I absolutely love that girl. She has a little boy named Jonathan who just turned 2. Oh man I have been through so much with that girl. And I'll most likely ask her to become apart of my wedding. I'm trying desperately to keep my bridal party # down but for some reason it's not working. Maybe I can have Lyza and Tina do special readings during the ceremony. That would be nice. But I'm seriously thinking of adding 2 more girls to my bridal party. Maybe Noah can add another guy (since my sister is walking down the aisle alone...she's the Matron of Honor). He can add Ben to the party! Bwahaha. Oh wait, you guys dont know about Ben. I forgot! Oh but you will soon learn about him. He's a real work of art (not in the good looking way, in the personality way). Ok enough about all that now.
I really do miss Noah though. I HATE being this far apart from him. Hate it with a passion actually. It's like I'm not complete without him. Like that song "...everytime you go away, you take a piece of me with you..." Is that it? I think so. I just want him to be in Vegas full time. I want us to start our lives out here. It'll be so wonderful once he's here for good. I'll be a very happy Natty. :-D
WTF. I've gotten 5 delieveries today of flowers (for 5 different people). Someone send me flowers. I want to feel special. If you need my address just let me know! Haha. Oh man these are pretty roses too. I feel left out. Is today "flower day" or something? I'm logging onto 1800 Flowers right now and I'm going to send myself flowers. Wouldnt that be funny. Have them put on the card "from your secret admirer". Oh man I'd get a real kick out of watching everyones faces. Ok I'm talking crazy now. Time for lunch. Ciao.