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it's over now it's over for good i think. everything is so crazy right now justin and i went on vacation together everything was more then great until we got back home. my mom and i got into a huge fight last wednesday she kicked me out of the house isn't the first time. i had been staying back and forth at sarahs and justins. well on friday i went into work and tiffany had called in sick. i called justin on my break to see if he wanted some lunch and bill told me that he wasnt around so i started feeling really wierd about it all. i told tommy that i wasn't feeling good and i left work for the day. i went straight to justins house and sure enough tiffanys fucking car was parked in front of his house. i went inside and started freaking out i told her to get the fuck out of the house and both her and justin were telling me that it wasnt anything like what i thought it was and i told the dumb bitch to shut her fucking mouth if she knew what was good for her. so she got her stuff and took off. lucky she did cause i was so mad i was about to beat the shit out of her. then justin and i got into a huge fight and he kept saying that if i cant trust him then he doesnt want to be together and i told him that i dont know how the fuck i can trust him with her when they have already had sex before. not like they couldn't do it again. so i basically told him to fuck off and enjoy his life without me and i left. i went back to sarahs house and we then proceeded to get very drunk and i cried all night practically and then to make my life even more confusing she kissed me and we fooled around and i dont even know what afterward but things are wierd now and im thinking about just staying at michelles house from now on. im at work right now on my lunch break and wanted to take a minute to get everything out in this journal. my life is so crazy right now but im not as down as ive been i almost feel a little bit of relief. i almost want to call robert. but then thinking back over the past 3 1/2 years i have spent with justin just makes things a little harder then could have been expected. i dont know.