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yesterday was somewhat of an emotional day for me. justin woke me up in the morning and told me that today was going to be my day. we went out to breakfast and he paid for it. then he took me to the mall and spent over 250 dollars on me. he just told me to get whatever clothes i wanted and he would pay for it and he did. then he took me out to lunch and after that we went back to his house. we took a little nap together and then he told me to get dressed up so I did and then he took us over to shays which is a really nice resturant and we had a really nice dinner together. it was so expensive! but he paid for all of that too. he was just being really really sweet all night and i asked him why and he just said that i need to be showed every once in awhile how much he loves me. i wanted to cry. i came back to my mom's last night and i couldn't go to sleep. i just cryed and cryed. he is being so nice and sweet to me and i just slept with robert the other night. i have so much guilt weighing on my shoulders that i can hardly breathe. i feel torn between the two and i know that is a sick thing to say. justin would give me the world the moon and stars if he could and i still want to keep having flings with robert. i am so pathetic.