gruh??
oh my gosh my mind is WARPED!! so i was just on my user info.. and then i glanced down at "leeching off my dad for a living" and i was like wow someone else leeches off their dad for a living too??!! and then i was like, wait.. it's... my ... page.... *dies*
these past *counts on fingers*.. 4 days have been surreal beyond belief.. thursday i stayed at home from school because i didn't have anything to wear because i didn't have any laundry done because i don't have a light in my room... then friday, i was super sick... and then i got my period.. and then i went to youthgroup at church and i was really sick there i was contemplating calling lu to pick me up but i stuck it out.. then i came to lucy's because she bought me something chocolatey.. and then she wanted me to sleep over because .. well i donno why.. but i did.. and i took her key so that i'd be able to get in the house on sat. morning, but i went home and left the key there.. so saturday morning, i was going PSYCHO.. literally... lucy was gone, and i wasn't feeling good, but i wanted to go to school.. but i couldn't get in the house because i left the key there the night before....
i was crying my wacky little eyes OUT.. and i was soo mad at myself, i wanted to flippin take a knife and saw the skin right off of me.. and i wanted to just stab myself for being sooo stupid and absentminded.. because i've been in a stupid/absentminded funk for a long time now.. and i kept on trying to call kenton but the signal kept on fading in the house.. lol poor kenton, it was like 5am for him.. the worst i did was scratch myself really hard with my nails because my cramps were bad and it kinda helped to alleviate the pain.. but then kenton calmed me down.. and i went to sleep.. and i don't know the rest has kinda been a daze for me since.. i remember going out to eat and i thought i was getting steak, but it turned out to be ground beef in a patty.. i was peeshed.. and it tasted like dog anyways.. >.>
so i'm sorta looking forward to going to school tomorrow.. i hope i can get my stateboard set in in time so i don't get sent home.. i just need a sense of normalcy again glarghwa...
kenton is coming this friday i'm super excited... i'm getting weave this week hopefully.. i'm excited about that too.. i stink really bad because i keep on waking up and i'll be sweating throughout my whole body.. it's crazy..
i've ... got.... to .... lose ... weight...
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these past *counts on fingers*.. 4 days have been surreal beyond belief.. thursday i stayed at home from school because i didn't have anything to wear because i didn't have any laundry done because i don't have a light in my room... then friday, i was super sick... and then i got my period.. and then i went to youthgroup at church and i was really sick there i was contemplating calling lu to pick me up but i stuck it out.. then i came to lucy's because she bought me something chocolatey.. and then she wanted me to sleep over because .. well i donno why.. but i did.. and i took her key so that i'd be able to get in the house on sat. morning, but i went home and left the key there.. so saturday morning, i was going PSYCHO.. literally... lucy was gone, and i wasn't feeling good, but i wanted to go to school.. but i couldn't get in the house because i left the key there the night before....
i was crying my wacky little eyes OUT.. and i was soo mad at myself, i wanted to flippin take a knife and saw the skin right off of me.. and i wanted to just stab myself for being sooo stupid and absentminded.. because i've been in a stupid/absentminded funk for a long time now.. and i kept on trying to call kenton but the signal kept on fading in the house.. lol poor kenton, it was like 5am for him.. the worst i did was scratch myself really hard with my nails because my cramps were bad and it kinda helped to alleviate the pain.. but then kenton calmed me down.. and i went to sleep.. and i don't know the rest has kinda been a daze for me since.. i remember going out to eat and i thought i was getting steak, but it turned out to be ground beef in a patty.. i was peeshed.. and it tasted like dog anyways.. >.>
so i'm sorta looking forward to going to school tomorrow.. i hope i can get my stateboard set in in time so i don't get sent home.. i just need a sense of normalcy again glarghwa...
kenton is coming this friday i'm super excited... i'm getting weave this week hopefully.. i'm excited about that too.. i stink really bad because i keep on waking up and i'll be sweating throughout my whole body.. it's crazy..
i've ... got.... to .... lose ... weight...
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