i want chocolate
so i've been really low lately.. why do drugs and alcohol exist???? and why does it seem that every person in the vicinity of my age thinks it's the cool thing to do?? i'm so tired i could scream.. i talked to some people at school about it today, they made me kinda feel better about things.. i've really just wanted to disappear lately, but then again i don't want to leave kenton or kaevon behind.. they make me super happy.. today i just wanted to take my scissors and slash myself lol.. but what good would it do ya know? i'm just so mad at myself and i don't know why.. i'm mad and upset and i don't know i'm a loser but i was feeling better by the end of the day but now i'm just tired, and the morning seems to come so quickly and i have to wake up in the morning and do the same crap all over again blah.. maybe it's the music i listen to in the morning.. it's very melancholy, perhaps it's puts me in a sad mood?? i don't know gawww.. i'm gonna go lie down..