Skin Deep
Title: Skin Deep Second Wave
Author: ladyboydrew
Pairing: Jared/OMCs, Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC17
Warning/enticement: slash, drug use, underage drinking
Disclaimer: I don't own Jensen or Jared which makes me sad.
Summary: Jared Padalecki is a successful, handsome man who likes to be with a different guy every night. He doesn't believe in falling in love or settling down. Jared is all about sex and satisfaction with no emotional commitment to tie him to anyone. Jensen is young, idealistic and believes in love. He wants to have a loving committed relationship with one man who will be his partner in every aspect of his life. When Jensen met Jared, he knew Jared was the man he wanted to be with but the sexy older man had other ideas. Could a playboy and a pure heart ever become true partners?
Skin Deep
Second Wave
During that summer, Jared still fucked a different guy every night except Friday and Saturday. Those nights were reserved for Jensen. The lovers had fallen into a regular routine. Jensen would show up at Vice around 9:00 each Friday and Saturday night and meet up with Jared. They would drink and dance for awhile, then Jensen would follow Jared to his place. They would fuck for hours all over Jared's apartment, in the elevator or on the roof until they were worn out. Jared would let Jensen stay in his bed to sleep for a few hours and Jensen would always wake up and leave before morning. The last weekend before Jensen went away to college, he asked Jared to meet him at a coffe shop. Jared was a little surprised by the request, but he said yes and showed up on time.
Jensen sat at the small table in Carl's Cafe and waited for Jared to arrive. His stomach was flip flopping with nerves and he hadn't touched the coffee he'd ordered when he arrived. When Jared walked in, Jensen felt like his heart skipped a beat. He watched with growing anxiety as Jared got a coffee and came over to the table to join him.
“You feeling okay? You look a little pale.” Jared asked as he sat across from Jensen.
“You know I'm leaving Sunday to go to college. It's a three hour drive from here. I was just thinking I could still drive down here on the weekends. We could still get together.” Jensen blurted out before he totally lost his nerve.
“Jensen, you're going to be at college. You're going to be too busy fucking every hot guy on campus to even think about driving back here. How about we plan to hook up over the holidays. We could fuck with Santa hats on.” Jared said and laughed at the image that brought to mind.
Jensen felt the hope he'd held in his heart being ripped away. He'd made himself believe that Jared had formed some attachment to him. Something more than just being his wild weekend fuck buddy. He decided to try one more thing. “So you wouldn't care if I fucked every hot guy on campus?” Jensen asked as he searched Jared's blue green eyes.
“I'd be upset if you didn't. These are your prime years for fucking, Jensen. You can have any man you want so go for it.” Jared said with a naughty grin.
“Is that what you did in college? You fucked every hot guy you met?”
“That's what I still do. I'm only twenty five. I've still got a lot of good years left in me.” Jared stated proudly.
“What about in the future, Jay? Are you ever gonna find someone and just be with him?” Jensen asked holding back the tears that were threatening to fall.
“I don't plan to live past thirty. If I do, I certainly won't be looking for a partner to tie me down. I'm going to keep fucking whoever I want, whenever I want, however I want. That's what I do Jensen. You should know that by now.” Jared said matter of factly.
“Yeah, I should.” Jensen said working very hard to keep the tears at bay. “My friends are having a going away party for me tonight. I'd ask you to come, but I'm sure you wouldn't be interested. Bye, Jared.” Jensen stood up and started to leave.
“Enjoy college gorgeous! I'll see you at Christmas.” Jared replied and watched Jensen walk out the door. He looked back and noticed neither of them had touched their coffee. Jared refused to acknowledge the hollow ache the he felt deep in his heart at the thought of not seeing Jensen for the next several months.
Jensen met Misha Collins his first week at college. They became instand BFFs and managed to change their dorm rooms so they could be together. Jensen confided in Misha about his heart break over Jared. Misha was sympathetic and resolved to help Jensen find a new man to get him over the player. As the months passed, Jensen did hook up with several hot guys on campus, but none of them made him feel like Jared did.
After Jensen left for college, Jared's behavior changed. He didn't just go to the club and fuck random guys there anymore. He started picking up two or three guys and taking them to hotels to party. It seemed no matter how many guys he fucked in a week, Jared still wanted Jensen. Jared began to silently count down the days until Jensen would be home for Christmas break. He even considered taking Jensen to a hotel for a few days and fucking his brains out to make up for lost time.
The last day of classes Jensen and Misha got back to their dorm early in the afternoon. They talked while they packed up and prepared to leave. When they were ready to go, they hugged tightly realizing they were going to miss each other over the holiday break.
“You take care, Ken Doll. Be sure to avoid all the Barbies at the mall doing their holiday shopping. I know they'd love to bag you and take home for Christmas.” Misha said as they got to the parking lot to leave the campus.
“You be careful too, Blue Eyes. Somebody might mistake you for a Christmas Angel and try to strap you to their tree!” Jensen replied. They hugged one last time and said their goodbyes.
Jared noticed all the college boys invading Vice and wondered when Jensen would show up or call. As the days passed, Jared found himself looking as his phone frequently and resisting the temptation to call Jensen's number. When December 22nd rolled around with no word from Jensen, Jared decided to try a different tactic. He had his friend, Chad, take a nude pic of him wearing only a Santa Hat. He used a photo edit program to add Happy Holidays to it and sent it to Jensen's phone.
Jensen had decided he wouldn't contact Jared over Christmas break. He would only be setting himself up to get hurt again if he did. He spent a lot of time with his little sister and his old school friends getting caught up on everyone's lives. On December 22nd he got a nude picture of Jared on his phone wishing him a happy holiday. Jensen practically drooled over the photo. He remembered how incredible it was to be with Jared and his resolve crumbled. Jensen called Jared and ended up going over to his house.
Jared opened the door and saw Jensen standing there looking just as gorgeous as he remembered. They settled on the sofa and started drinking champagne.
“So how are you enjoying all the hot guys at your college?” Jared asked with a hard glint in his eyes.
“I don't want to talk about them. I'm here with you now.” Jensen replied as he met Jared's dark gaze.
Jared was surprised that he felt something close to jealousy at the thought that Jensen had actually been fucking guys at his college. Course with the way Jared had been behaving, he had no ground to stand on in that department. He might have to move just to find some fresh guys to fuck. “Have you made any new friends?” Jared asked wondering if Jensen was getting along well away from home.
“Yeah, my new best friend is Misha.” Jensen said with a happy grin.
“Misha huh. Is she a good fag hag?” Jared asked with a smile glad that Jensen had a new friend at college.
“Misha is a dude! He's gay too. He really understands me. I wish he could have come home with me over break. I'd like him to meet all my friends here and my family.” Jensen replied.
At that moment, Jared realized that Jensen had never really offered to introduce him to his friends or family. He figured Misha must be pretty important to Jensen. There was that nagging feeling like jealousy again. “Do you have a photo of Misha?” Jared asked trying to sound casual.
“Yeah, our buddy, Chris, took this while we were visiting him and his boyfriend, Steve.” Jensen got out his phone and pulled up the pic of him and Misha. He handed the phone over.
Jared took Jensen's phone and looked at the photo of Jensen and Misha. They had their arms around each other and their cheeks pressed together. They both had huge silly grins on their faces and looked ridiculously happy. Jared stared hard at the photo before handing the phone back to Jensen. “He's hot. You should bring him here for a threesome.” Jared remarked.
“Misha is my friend. I don't have sex with him.” Jensen replied as he snatched back his phone from Jared.
“Don't get your panties in a twist. I was only teasing. I hope college hasn't robbed you of your sense of humor.” Jared said trying to placate Jensen.
“There's nothing wrong with my sense of humor. That just wasn't funny. Misha is my best friend. I don't like you talking about him like he's some slut boy you fucked at Vice.” Jensen said feeling angry and upset.
“Sorry, Jensen. Let's just drink our champagne and try to relax.” Jared suggested.
By the time the bottle was empty Jensen and Jared were pleasantly buzzed. Jared got out the pot and poppers and they had a long hard fuck session to ease the tension between them.
A new routine was set in their lives. Jensen and Jared regularly got together over the summer and during Christmas and Spring break. The rest of the year they could be with whoever they wanted. This arrangement lasted until Jensen got out of college.
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Jensen was twenty one now. He had filled out and had a nicely muscled body. The summer started out as usual with him seeing Jared every Friday and Saturday night for sex. Jensen had been sending out a steady stream of resumes since he'd graduated and he was starting to go on interviews. One marketing company made him a lucrative offer, but the job was at a new branch office in Minnesota. Jensen asked them for a day to think it over. He called Jared and asked if he could come by that night. Jared agreed and they set the time at 8:00.
Jared greeted Jensen at the door with a wicked grin. “Just couldn't wait until Friday to get more of this.” He said and kissed Jensen hard while grinding their hips together.
When they had separated, Jensen said. “Actually, I need to talk to you, Jay. Let's sit down.” Both men settled on the leather couch and Jensen continued. “I got a really great job offer as a graphic designer, but the company would be sending me to their Minnesota branch. I just wanted your thoughts on that.”
“That's awesome, Jensen! Congratulations! When do you leave?” Jared replied with a smile.
“I haven't accepted the position yet. I thought maybe you'd want me to stay.” Jensen said in a low voice. He was hopelessly in love with Jared and once again he was putting his heart on the line for the older man.
“I want you to go and be a huge success! We can still fuck in Santa Hats when you come home for the Holidays.” Jared said with a wicked grin.
Jensen looked down so Jared wouldn't see the pain in his eyes. He just had to accept the fact that Jared was never going to love him. He was always going to be a fuck buddy and nothing more. “I'll call them tomorrow and tell them I accept.” Jensen forced out past a large lump of emotion in his throat.
“That's my boy! Now, I'm gonna break out the champagne! We're gonna celebrate! Tonight I'm going to fuck you til you beg for mercy or pass out whichever comes first.” Jared promised with an intense look in his lust darkened eyes.
Jared went into the kitchen to get the champagne. He stopped for a minute and leaned on the island. He took a few deep breaths and fought back the emotion that was trying to overwhelm him. He knew a guy like Jensen out in the world wouldn't stay single long. Some man would come along, see how amazing he was and snap him up. Jared couldn't understand why this was bothering him. He didn't believe in love or relationships. Why should he care if Jensen moved in with some guy and made a life with him. Jensen was just another one of his fuck toys. His favorite one, but nothing more than that. Jared steadfastly ignored the ache in his heart as he collected the champagne and went back to Jensen. If there time together was short, Jared would damn sure make it unforgettable.
Skin Deep Third Move
