updates on the cosplay, the blog, and nothin' else.
Hey ya'll,
I'm so neglecting my LJ, and if not to you then I must apologize to myself about that. I guess the things that I want to talk about lately just aren't well portrayed on this site, or I know they wouldn't be interesting to anyone but the Suicide Squad fandom. Still down that rabbit hole and will not be coming out any time soon. lol
I've made a lot of improvements on my cosplay, went on a few shopping adventures, and spent more money than I'd anticipated, but I still can't figure out why. It's already a given that the character I'm cosplaying has been hacked up by editing and mostly left on a cutting room floor, so is my blind passion and headcanonning (yes, I'm turning that into a verb) really propelling all this effort? I especially wonder this since Orlok never made it past the effort needed to show him on a low resolution webcam.
Here's my guess: this is how I would have been with Orlok, if I hadn't been swamped with schoolwork and living financial aid check to financial aid check. I was poor, stressed, and depressed. I could throw in that the Nosferatu "fandom" is not alive and kickin' like the Suicide Squad one is, but we all know I put astronomical amounts of care into things that will be covered in cobwebs in due time *coughcough*The AIW website*coughcough*...
No, but really, it's been fun. Maybe that's what I'm spending the money and time on: having a mission and feeling supported in it. Having little increments of success come your way because you worked for it and were patient and dedicated. I think I will shock myself and everyone else when this thing comes together, even if my progress is on tumblr for all to see. There are close to 170 followers now; that's pretty cool. And they're all nice and encouraging. New stuff is still surfacing so we are always excitedly passing it around. They released a collector's edition of the film score, Margot Robbie is hosting SNL in a week, and she is also creating a spinoff film about Harley Quinn which means probably MOAR JOKER! :DDD
But, as to be expected, I did get my first anon hate... I was asked why I choose to cosplay an abuser. I had many responses running through my head. I wanted them to answer their own question. I wanted to point out that discouraging me from doing something I enjoy that isn't hurting anyone is worse than anything a fictional character does to another fictional character. I also wanted to post a bunch of pictures of awesome cosplays of villains or monsters, with variant questions. "Why would you cosplay Jafar, someone who turns himself into a genie and enslaves the world?!" "Why are you Dracula? He's always killing people!" "Of all the characters, you had to choose Austin Powers? HE'S A WOMANIZER. I GUESS YOU SUPPORT WOMANIZATION." But I didn't say anything because I do not believe in spreading negativity, and I think that anon's mind was closed. Nothing I could say would get them or anyone similar to act with more respect. Plus, I think as your site traffic grows, you... you don't exactly owe anything to anyone, but you have more of a chance to cheer people up and inspire them, which I bet members of this fandom need, given how often they are criticized, and how often it's insecurity that fuels their obsession for the characters... I don't want to remind them that there are discouraging assholes out there, and I especially don't want to have/be seen having my feathers ruffled by them. They don't deserve to see that I noticed them. I want them to see me having a rockin' time doing something I'm good at.
Anyhoo... that's where my head is right now... I wish I could say that I could split it into two subjects, but He's There is just lying around, and whenever I go to work on it, I reread what I wrote, find problems with it, and then am too tired to actually write new scenes. It's a vicious cycle. A really stupid and lazy one, too.
*shrug*
♥,
J
I'm so neglecting my LJ, and if not to you then I must apologize to myself about that. I guess the things that I want to talk about lately just aren't well portrayed on this site, or I know they wouldn't be interesting to anyone but the Suicide Squad fandom. Still down that rabbit hole and will not be coming out any time soon. lol
I've made a lot of improvements on my cosplay, went on a few shopping adventures, and spent more money than I'd anticipated, but I still can't figure out why. It's already a given that the character I'm cosplaying has been hacked up by editing and mostly left on a cutting room floor, so is my blind passion and headcanonning (yes, I'm turning that into a verb) really propelling all this effort? I especially wonder this since Orlok never made it past the effort needed to show him on a low resolution webcam.
Here's my guess: this is how I would have been with Orlok, if I hadn't been swamped with schoolwork and living financial aid check to financial aid check. I was poor, stressed, and depressed. I could throw in that the Nosferatu "fandom" is not alive and kickin' like the Suicide Squad one is, but we all know I put astronomical amounts of care into things that will be covered in cobwebs in due time *coughcough*The AIW website*coughcough*...
No, but really, it's been fun. Maybe that's what I'm spending the money and time on: having a mission and feeling supported in it. Having little increments of success come your way because you worked for it and were patient and dedicated. I think I will shock myself and everyone else when this thing comes together, even if my progress is on tumblr for all to see. There are close to 170 followers now; that's pretty cool. And they're all nice and encouraging. New stuff is still surfacing so we are always excitedly passing it around. They released a collector's edition of the film score, Margot Robbie is hosting SNL in a week, and she is also creating a spinoff film about Harley Quinn which means probably MOAR JOKER! :DDD
But, as to be expected, I did get my first anon hate... I was asked why I choose to cosplay an abuser. I had many responses running through my head. I wanted them to answer their own question. I wanted to point out that discouraging me from doing something I enjoy that isn't hurting anyone is worse than anything a fictional character does to another fictional character. I also wanted to post a bunch of pictures of awesome cosplays of villains or monsters, with variant questions. "Why would you cosplay Jafar, someone who turns himself into a genie and enslaves the world?!" "Why are you Dracula? He's always killing people!" "Of all the characters, you had to choose Austin Powers? HE'S A WOMANIZER. I GUESS YOU SUPPORT WOMANIZATION." But I didn't say anything because I do not believe in spreading negativity, and I think that anon's mind was closed. Nothing I could say would get them or anyone similar to act with more respect. Plus, I think as your site traffic grows, you... you don't exactly owe anything to anyone, but you have more of a chance to cheer people up and inspire them, which I bet members of this fandom need, given how often they are criticized, and how often it's insecurity that fuels their obsession for the characters... I don't want to remind them that there are discouraging assholes out there, and I especially don't want to have/be seen having my feathers ruffled by them. They don't deserve to see that I noticed them. I want them to see me having a rockin' time doing something I'm good at.
Anyhoo... that's where my head is right now... I wish I could say that I could split it into two subjects, but He's There is just lying around, and whenever I go to work on it, I reread what I wrote, find problems with it, and then am too tired to actually write new scenes. It's a vicious cycle. A really stupid and lazy one, too.
*shrug*
♥,
J