negative to positive in like five minutes
I've become terribly confused with what I'm doing! I have chapter 6 sitting here, and I just keep rereading it, reworking it, adjusting it, omitting one sentence somewhere, thinking maybe now it flows the way I want it, but no, it does not. I feel like half of it totally loses its pacing and will lose its readers, even though this may not be true. I feel like there's something I'm doing that I already did and it's either I throw out a bunch of stuff I enjoyed writing and thought meant something or risk being redundant. I might just finish what I was doing, wrap up this chapter, and then ask for help, because I've been stumped on it for like... the entire month. And I am itching to know what cloudsinvenice thinks. x) And savoreachsense, and Emily, and Jenna.
I'm just tryinggg... to be positive, here. When I finish it, even if it's not very good, I will have created about half of all the new material I need before I smooth out the entire thing, and I will have done it on time. If I stay at the pace I've been going (which allows for me to slow down like this when I'm having trouble), I'll have rewritten everything I wanted to, with time to spare on other projects, and on editing... I think.
Ugh, yes, think positive, Jennifer!
You have been revising your novel like a champion! Even through horrible feelings of self-hatred and hopelessness and fatigue and a sudden loss of motivation, you are doing it!
And you were drawing something lately.
It's part of a mini-comic for an idea I had years ago about Hatter and Hare deciding they would tape their dicks together, for no reason at all. thchchchchh
You know, it actually feels good to act like I accomplished something. I mean, even though I know I did, having something that is at least remarkably similar to depression zaps away positive feelings you have about what you've done, until nothing's good enough. I might just come here and make it a rule to say mostly positive things and celebrate instead of complaining. Probably makes it more enjoyable for the rest of you, anyway. Okay, no more whining. I'll post the comic when it's done!
♥,
J
I'm just tryinggg... to be positive, here. When I finish it, even if it's not very good, I will have created about half of all the new material I need before I smooth out the entire thing, and I will have done it on time. If I stay at the pace I've been going (which allows for me to slow down like this when I'm having trouble), I'll have rewritten everything I wanted to, with time to spare on other projects, and on editing... I think.
Ugh, yes, think positive, Jennifer!
You have been revising your novel like a champion! Even through horrible feelings of self-hatred and hopelessness and fatigue and a sudden loss of motivation, you are doing it!
And you were drawing something lately.
It's part of a mini-comic for an idea I had years ago about Hatter and Hare deciding they would tape their dicks together, for no reason at all. thchchchchh
You know, it actually feels good to act like I accomplished something. I mean, even though I know I did, having something that is at least remarkably similar to depression zaps away positive feelings you have about what you've done, until nothing's good enough. I might just come here and make it a rule to say mostly positive things and celebrate instead of complaining. Probably makes it more enjoyable for the rest of you, anyway. Okay, no more whining. I'll post the comic when it's done!
♥,
J