see? I can talk about my feelings.
He was a maniac without a nose,
She was a vapid bimbo from Sweden
Phantom humor, sometimes I just can't get enough of it. XD
Anyway, I'm without computer right now. The one that I'm using to type this is being loaned to me by my computer guy until they can find out what's wrong with Hermy. Unfortunately, while it's sleek, clean, and has internet, it randomly shuts off. He warned me that there may be something wrong with it, but we both agreed that it didn't really matter given that I'd only be using it for three days.
I was going to begin writing He's There with it at the park, taking advantage of my last week here in my home, where the park is close and I still feel comfortable, but because of this shutting-off problem, it's impossible. The fact that I'm here writing this entry is a gamble in itself.
But! The reason I decided to stop by is that I'm trying to work on my to-do list as well as I can, so I started revising CP3 (without Kate's help) and got through three parts. Already, it's become funnier and more coherant, and I'm looking forward to Kate seeing what I did and maybe adding to it if she feels like it. This is probably what I'll be up to until I get my computer back, so I'm going to see how far I can get.
Overall, I feel really lazy about 2011, not getting to He's There until the last quarter, but I promised myself I'd be dedicated to it this Autumn. I always always always try to think of things optimistically too, lest I end up wallowing in disappointment with myself or having unfair standards. Life has gotten in the way. We're selling our house of all my life. I just haven't felt like writing for some reason.
But hey! CP3 will have a website and CP4 will have started. Two of my goals will be done, and there's still opportunity to do others. It's all up to me to find time in between my four classes. I only need to be fueled by motivation. I'll be motivated as long as I keep my mind on it. They say an active body stays active. The same goes for minds, right? Nothing made me more excited to do He's There work than just reading the book, or watching a movie. And then Halloween is right around the corner, and I need to get to work on my Lon Chaney costume!
I've gotta work in AIW again too. I feel just horrible that it was a whole year ago that I wrote a short story that I loved and then just stopped with that. What about Hare and Rabbit switching bodies?! What about Hatter buying that jacuzzi?!
Even when I don't write because I honestly don't feel like it, I'm still lonely without it. I still always wish that I did feel like it. I think that's how I know I'm a writer and not just somebody "trying to do it" as I might say when I feel I wasn't prolific enough. A writer is someone whose being is defined and shaped by the fact that writing is in their lives. A normal person, I think, wouldn't feel this way, the way I do, if they just gave up stories. They wouldn't mope around, feeling empty. lol Nor would they feel so godamn triumphant, and dance around the house, just because they got back into it. I still remember doing can-cans when Chapter 24 of He's There was finished in August 2009, a little before I had a writing streak during NaNoWriMo. Those moments are awesome, but only writers have them.
So, at the end of the day, I have to feel good knowing those moments are in the future for me, even after a year like this. Which isn't over, by the way! Think of it that way. I'm never really out of control. You get back what you put in.
Well, here's a bar I can hope to fill in the next few days! (Edited!)
5 / 15 words. 33% done!
♥,
Jennifer
She was a vapid bimbo from Sweden
Phantom humor, sometimes I just can't get enough of it. XD
Anyway, I'm without computer right now. The one that I'm using to type this is being loaned to me by my computer guy until they can find out what's wrong with Hermy. Unfortunately, while it's sleek, clean, and has internet, it randomly shuts off. He warned me that there may be something wrong with it, but we both agreed that it didn't really matter given that I'd only be using it for three days.
I was going to begin writing He's There with it at the park, taking advantage of my last week here in my home, where the park is close and I still feel comfortable, but because of this shutting-off problem, it's impossible. The fact that I'm here writing this entry is a gamble in itself.
But! The reason I decided to stop by is that I'm trying to work on my to-do list as well as I can, so I started revising CP3 (without Kate's help) and got through three parts. Already, it's become funnier and more coherant, and I'm looking forward to Kate seeing what I did and maybe adding to it if she feels like it. This is probably what I'll be up to until I get my computer back, so I'm going to see how far I can get.
Overall, I feel really lazy about 2011, not getting to He's There until the last quarter, but I promised myself I'd be dedicated to it this Autumn. I always always always try to think of things optimistically too, lest I end up wallowing in disappointment with myself or having unfair standards. Life has gotten in the way. We're selling our house of all my life. I just haven't felt like writing for some reason.
But hey! CP3 will have a website and CP4 will have started. Two of my goals will be done, and there's still opportunity to do others. It's all up to me to find time in between my four classes. I only need to be fueled by motivation. I'll be motivated as long as I keep my mind on it. They say an active body stays active. The same goes for minds, right? Nothing made me more excited to do He's There work than just reading the book, or watching a movie. And then Halloween is right around the corner, and I need to get to work on my Lon Chaney costume!
I've gotta work in AIW again too. I feel just horrible that it was a whole year ago that I wrote a short story that I loved and then just stopped with that. What about Hare and Rabbit switching bodies?! What about Hatter buying that jacuzzi?!
Even when I don't write because I honestly don't feel like it, I'm still lonely without it. I still always wish that I did feel like it. I think that's how I know I'm a writer and not just somebody "trying to do it" as I might say when I feel I wasn't prolific enough. A writer is someone whose being is defined and shaped by the fact that writing is in their lives. A normal person, I think, wouldn't feel this way, the way I do, if they just gave up stories. They wouldn't mope around, feeling empty. lol Nor would they feel so godamn triumphant, and dance around the house, just because they got back into it. I still remember doing can-cans when Chapter 24 of He's There was finished in August 2009, a little before I had a writing streak during NaNoWriMo. Those moments are awesome, but only writers have them.
So, at the end of the day, I have to feel good knowing those moments are in the future for me, even after a year like this. Which isn't over, by the way! Think of it that way. I'm never really out of control. You get back what you put in.
Well, here's a bar I can hope to fill in the next few days! (Edited!)
5 / 15 words. 33% done!
♥,
Jennifer