Dear Universe.

[ladyboobie]

I only have so much time to tell you in. I have to work at 4, and I still need to get ready. However, it has come to my attention that I am losing the race with life. That is to say, I am not in school, I am in debt up to my eyeballs, not just in school loans, but also in regular month-to-month bills and money that I have borrowed from friends.

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[brownsugah85]

Jess, I'm going through the same thing, wondering about the what ifs of life. But what I do is just sit by myself and think long and hard about my options and the opportunities these options will afford me and if they are worth taking. Life can throw you for loops, making you happy one day and sadder than hell the very next, it's the nature of the beast.

What I think you should do now is get out of debt first of all and try to get on stable financial feet. Then after all of those obligations are wiped from your hand you can focus on your education and where you want to live. If you break the lease now your friend will have the option of taking you to court to get the money out of you, making you pay all of the court fees and lawyer fees if you get one and what not. Sometimes we have to do the things that we don't like to get the things that we do like.

I am constantly constantly constantly re-evaluating my life and one of the main reasons is because of my location. I don't like livng here as I've said many times before and the thing that's keeping me here is college, I'm too close to graduating to spend the time, money and energy to go somewhere else, so I stay here and suffer until I graduate because things could be worse, I could be stuck here for the rest of my life without any options whatsoever and stay at a job that I love to hate and hate to love.

So sit down sometime soon and just analyze every single aspect of your life and decide what to do next, you never know what events may connect that you never thought about before.

Good luck and take care!